I have a confession

[uglygal]

I have been praying and for some reason my conscience is being nagged. I feel distressed and unsettled and I feel that if my conscience is disturbing me I must have done or be doing something wrong.
As I logged on to post just now in another post a message came across the screen.I don’t know where it came from and it said, “beware you don’t lead souls away from me”
It scared me.

For this reason I think I’ll leave CA for a while, pray and try to figure out what i’m doing wrong. I pray for my Father to guide me and I’m sure that’s what He’s doing.
I’m only human and imperfect and maybe I have things wrong, or I’m delusional, or misled, or possessed by the devil or who knows … I’m weak and i can fall. I’m not infallible or all knowing.
While praying today the Father led me to a realization that because I feel I have been abandoned and deceived by Jesus I feel like I have to and want to expose him as a fraud or something like that.
I’m feeling that maybe He wants me to stay quiet and leave it be. He will guide me and sort me out.
So I’ll stay quiet.
I don’t want to lead anyone away from God. I don’t want to lead others in a wrong direction … *I *don’t want to go in a wrong direction.

Thanks for listening.

uglygal is a stupidgal too

im sorry

 

[d_floyd77]

I’m sorry you are having such a hard time right now.

Have you had issues with scruples in the past?

 

[uglygal]

I appreciate your kindness and your concern. thankyou.

However I don’t want any responses. I want to leave it and I want to leave here.

 

[forgiveall]

What, don’t leave. We’ll try to help you through this. Know that you are not alone in what is happening to you. Don’t ever think that Jesus has abandoned you. Tell us what exactly happened, what is wrong. Let’s sort this out.

Lets work on this together