Okay I know that what the Catholic Church teaches about the Blasphemy of The Holy spirit. It teaches that unforgiveable sin is to not accept the forgiveness that Christ offers. Intellectually I know this. However I keep getting irrational fears that I have done it and almost play mind games with me. I talked with the apologist and said exactly what the Church teaches. Intellectually I want to accept God’s forgiveness and repent for my sins. However I find myself at the end of my Prayers struggling to finish. I feel like I lose grace and I also heard that if you are worried about it means that you have not committed it. I am currently in counseloing. When I go to Mass I get a resting feeling over me.I know that going to Confession will help, but my question is there anything else that can help me?
Prayers are welcomed.
Thanks and God Bless!
The words of Jesus to St. Faustina as recorded in her diary can help you, in my humble opinion.
First go to confession with complete trust in His Mercy, trust totally that He forgives you in confession, because He does!
Second, these words of Jesus to St. Faustina about His Mercy for us:
My secretary [St. Faustina], write that I am more generous toward sinners than toward the just. It was for their sake that I came down from heaven; it was for their sake that My Blood was spilled. Let them not fear to approach Me; they are most in need of My mercy.
There is no misery that could be a match for My mercy, neither will misery exhaust it, because as it is being granted – it increases. The soul which will trust in My mercy is most fortunate, because I myself take care of it.
Tell sinful souls not to be afraid to approach Me; speak to them of My great mercy.
Write, speak of My mercy. Tell souls where they are to look for solace; that is, in the Tribunal of Mercy [the sacrament of Reconciliation] . There the greatest miracles take place and are incessantly repeated. To avail oneself of this miracle, it is not necessary to go on a great pilgrimage or to carry out some external ceremony; it suffices to come with faith to the feet of My representative and to reveal to him one’s misery, and the miracle of Divine Mercy will be fully demonstrated. Were a soul like a decaying corpse so that from a human standpoint, there would be no hope of restoration and everything would already be lost, it is not so with God. The miracle of Divine Mercy restores that soul in full. Oh, how miserable are those who do not take advantage of the miracle of God’s mercy!
Do not put off the Sacrament of Penance, because this displeases Me.
Conversation of the Merciful God with a Sinful Soul.
Jesus: Be not afraid of your Savior, O sinful soul. I make the first move to come to you, for I know that by yourself you are unable to lift yourself to me. Child, do not run away from your Father; be willing to talk openly with Your God of mercy who wants to speak words of pardon and lavish his graces on you. How dear your soul is to Me! I have inscribed your name upon My hand; you are engraved as a deep wound in My Heart.
Soul: **Lord, I doubt that You will pardon my numerous sins; my misery fills me with fright. **
Jesus:
My mercy is greater than your sins and those of the entire World. Who can measure the extent of my goodness? For you I descended from heaven to earth; for you I allowed Myself to be nailed to the Cross; for you I let My Sacred Heart be pierced with a lance, thus opening wide the source of mercy for you. Come then, with trust to draw graces from this fountain. I never reject a contrite heart. Your misery has disappeared in the depths of My mercy. Do not argue with Me about your wretchedness. You will give me pleasure if you hand over to Me all your troubles and griefs. I shall heap upon you the treasures of My grace.
Soul: But fear fills me at the thought of my sins, and this terrible fear moves me to doubt Your goodness.
Jesus: My child, all your sins have not wounded My Heart as painfully as your present lack of trust does - that after so many efforts of My love and mercy, you should still doubt My goodness.
Have confidence, My child. Do not lose heart in coming for pardon, for I am always ready to forgive you. As often as you beg for it, you glorify My mercy…
God bless you.
Remember that the Enemy *wants *us to be discouraged, and this is one of the ways he works on our minds to discourage us. When it happens, pray! Ask for Christ to help you get rid of these discouraging thoughts, and ask Mary and your guardian angel and your patron saint and others to pray for you.