I really cannot anymore

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I’m diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder a couple of years back. Along with Dysthymia for most part of my earlier life. My garbage of a life turned from horrible to downright unlivable. I am no longer able to function as a human being, I’m crying multiple times a day. Medication from a psychiatrist and a fortnightly psychotherapy session at my local mental hospital aren’t helping. God has taken away my friends, my job, my money, my peace and any hope. I’ve been treated badly by most people I meet no matter how good of a person I tried to be with them. A Franciscan Sister that I had counselling sessions with recently tells me that everything that has happened to me is my fault and she absolved God of any fault. I asked myself and my conscience is clear that I have tried in the midst of uncertainty and God didn’t do the rest. I recall Catholics telling me that “God is not done with you yet.” while I was still in a ministry a decade ago. I believe they meant well but what I’m facing now feels like an eternal being of a child with an anthill and I’m the ant that He is using a magnifying glass to fry and the end is nowhere close. I can’t pray, I can only lash out, I seldom lash out, now it’s daily vulgarities against God. I am not Job, I cannot take all these. I remember someone told me about Max Weber’s analysis on the notion of pre-ordination in Calvinism. Souls were selected, elects and reprobates, some people are just meant to be damned no matter what they do. I’m a reprobate.

I didn’t ask to be born and I really cannot anymore. Help me pray or something. I don’t know.
 
I also struggle with Chronic Major Depression and Anxiety, and have experienced the same tumultuous thought patterns that you are passing through right now.

When I am having one of my “episodes” it is really hard, no matter what anyone says to focus on the good, to focus on the love of God, to focus on His mercy. But after a little while once the episode has passed, I am grateful that I stuck with God and my Orthodox Faith despite the many temptations to abandon Him in search of something, or someone that can take away the pain of depression or the inconsolable frenzy of anxiety.

While I know that most of what I say is probably just more wordy chaff to be blown aside, (as it should be), just know that there are real, living people here and elsewhere who are praying for you, and love you because you are made in the image of God and called to grow in His likeness.

Do you have any close friends or even acquaintances that you can be around while you wait for the mental storm to pass? Just the presence of another person can help stabilize me a little sometimes.

Prayers.
 
I understand how you feel because I’ve struggled with depression for years myself. What @(name removed by moderator) said is correct, He will not abandon us. Sometimes we just let our vision get so blurred it’s hard to see the real blessings, no matter how small, that we have. One thing I suggest you do each day is to do an act of kindness for someone. Do this every day without fail. It doesn’t have to be anything big, just do something for someone else, whether friend family or stranger. They don’t even have to know about it and you may not get thanked. But do it every day. It helped change my life.
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

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I suffered with major depression for 7 years … that was 20 years ago … I was so bad that they had to hospitalize me several times a year … but it slowly started going away … took three more years to crawl back to a normal existence … telling you this so that you know there is a light at the end of this road … don’t give up … do your best … which is all you can do … try to reach out to people for help … there are groups for the severely depressed … you may try to find one … seeing that there are others in the same shape may help you to have patience with your own situation.

God Bless and I will be praying for you.
 
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O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.
 
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I don't know what to do anymore! Prayer Intentions
I am unable to ask for prayers but I don’t know what else to do. I have trusted the Lord and He has robbed me of love, peace and even basic sustenance. I have lost my dearest of friends, I have lost a massive amount of money and was unable to obtain a proper job. Every job that I could score would suddenly turn from a lack of manpower to too much that I become superfluous. With not enough jobs or shifts to go around, I earn too little to cover my expenses. The economy is bad right now with hir…
You have been going through this for a long time. I will keep you in my prayers.
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

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I also suffer from mental issues; I have psychosis. I experience delusions in the form of hallucinations (I hear voices that no one else can hear). Our temporary life here on earth is like getting a tattoo. It hurts initially, but the beauty of that tattoo is there for life. Similarly, we suffer in this life, but in the end it will be worth it because the pleasure will last forever.
 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.
Said a prayer for you!
 
@josie_L CAF is in a way that it seemed you directly replied to my post. I thought it was odd, but hey… I don’t mind a prayer. :hugs:
 
O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.
 
Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.



Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.



Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.





Prayer to Our Lady of Mental Peace

O Lady of Mental Peace,

Mother of Tranquility

and Mother of Hope,

look upon Joybearer in this time

of weakness and unrest.

Teach her searching heart

to know that God’s Love

for her is unchanging and

unchangeable, and, that

true human love can only

begin and grow by touching

His Love.

Let your gentle Peace -

which this world cannot give
  • be always with her.
And, help her to bring this

same Peace into the lives

of others.

Our Lady of Mental Peace,
  • Pray for us!
Amen.

Prayer Against Depression

………….By St Ignatius of Loyola


O Christ Jesus

When all is darkness

And we feel our weakness and helplessness,

Give us the sense of Your Presence,

Your Love and Your Strength.

Help us to have perfect trust

In Your protecting love

And strengthening power,

So that nothing may frighten or worry us,

For, living close to You,

We shall see Your Hand,

Your Purpose, Your Will through all things.

Amen.

 
I’m sorry things are going badly for you. I really hope they get better for you soon. I’ll say a prayer for you.
 
O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.

 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

God help you and relieve you of your suffering!
 
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O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.

 
Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

God help you and relieve you of your suffering!
 
O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.

 
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