I think God just really hates me

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I think God just must really hate me. I thought it was said that he wouldn’t give you more than you can handle. He’s given me way more than I can handle and each day adds more to it. And then every now and then I’ll get a quick glimpse of hope and he’ll lay a double on me. Why does he hate me so much. I try so hard to be a good person. I pray and believe. And then I look at others that are so evil and they are rewarded with so much. Sometimes I think he wants me to commit suicide so I’ll have to suffer all over again. What am I doing wrong? Why is he placing so many struggles and hardships on me? Sometimes I wonder if I’m being punished for something I did wrong in a previous life. Do Catholics believe in that sort of thing?
 
Please contact a crisis center or hotline number, they will assist with your feelings of suicide.

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God loves you so much that His Son became man and died for you. See your Priest for Confession and spiritual assistance.
 
*Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with Thee. Blessed art Thou among women and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen. *

Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse.

No, Catholics do not believe in a past life. I do not know why God allows us or gives us suffering. I really do not understand. I hope in the Catholic Church, as a sort of doctor for the prescription of spiritual, and sometimes as well, physical healing. I hope that the medicine works, even though I don’t understand why. If it were a physical illness and I had medicine, I wouldn’t need to know why it chemically functioned to have it heal me and so I also take Catholicism at literal value and have hopes that it provides some help.

If it is the devil that is torturing you, St. Louis Mary de Montfort in True Devotion to Mary ewtn.com/library/montfort/truedevo.htm prescribes the Immaculate Heart of Mary. **52. ** God has established only one enmity - but it is an irreconcilable one- which will last and even go on increasing to the end of time. That enmity is between Mary, his worthy Mother, and the devil, between the children and the servants of the Blessed Virgin and the children and the followers of Lucifer.

Thus the most fearful enemy that God has set up against the devil is Mary, his holy Mother. From the time of the earthly paradise, although she existed then only in his mind, he gave her such a hatred for his accursed enemy, such ingenuity in exposing the wickedness of the ancient serpent and such power to defeat, overthrow and crush this proud rebel, that Satan fears her not only more than angels and men but in a certain sense more than God himself. This does not mean that the anger, hatred and power of God are not infinitely greater than the Blessed Virgin’s, since her attributes are limited. It simply means that Satan, being so proud, suffers infinitely more in being vanquished and punished by a lowly and humble servant of God, for her humility humiliates him more than the power of God. Moreover God has given Mary such great power over the evil spirits that, as they have often been forced unwillingly to admit through the lips of possessed persons, they fear one of her pleadings for a soul more than the prayers of all the saints, and one of her threats more than ll her other torments.

*If it is the harshness of the cross, maybe, perhaps a devotion to the Immaculate Heart of Mary will help, * Jesus life was full of suffering, as far as I can tell, but it seems to me that at least one time did not seem full of suffering - the wedding at Cana - where Jesus turned water into wine, the most glorious wine that the Master of the Wedding Party had ever tasted. Wedding, wine! There’s usually some happiness in that, right? St. Louis Mary de Montfort says, in True Devotion to the Blessed Virgin **152. ** This devotion is a smooth, short, perfect and sure way of attaining union with our Lord, in which Christian perfection consists.
  1. This devotion is a smooth way. It is the path which Jesus Christ opened up in coming to us and in which there is no obstruction to prevent our reaching him. It is quite true that we can attain to divine union by other roads, but these involve many more crosses and exceptional setbacks and many difficulties that we cannot easily overcome. We would have to pass through spiritual darkness, engage in struggles for which we are not prepared, endure bitter agonies, scale precipitous mountains, tread upon painful thorns, and cross frightful deserts. But when we take the path of Mary, we walk smoothly and calmly.
It is true that on our way we have hard battles to fight and serious obstacles to overcome, but Mary, our Mother and Queen, stays close to her faithful servants. She is always at hand to brighten their darkness, clear away their doubts, strengthen them in their fears, sustain them in their combats and trials.Truly, in comparison with other ways, this virgin road to Jesus is a path of roses and sweet delights. There have been some saints, not very many, such as St. Ephrem, St. John Damascene, St. Bernard, St. Bernardine, St. Bonaventure and St. Francis de Sales, who have taken this smooth path to Jesus Christ, because the Holy Spirit, the faithful Spouse of Mary, made it known to them by a special grace. The other saints, who are the greater number, while having a devotion to Mary, either did not enter or did not go far along this path. That is why they had to undergo harder and more dangerous trials.

Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse.

*Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with Thee. Blessed art Thou among women and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen. *
 
How could God hate you if He sent His Only Begotten Son to suffer horrendous humiliation and pain and death for you?

Ask St. Teresa of Avila to pray for you and acquire grace from Our Lord to strengthen you.
 
*Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with Thee. Blessed art Thou among women and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen. *

Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse.

**153. ** Why is it then, a servant of Mary might ask, that devoted servants of this good Mother are called upon to suffer much more than those who serve her less generously? They are opposed, persecuted, slandered, and treated with intolerance. They may also have to walk in interior darkness and through spiritual deserts without being given from heaven a single drop of the dew of consolation. If this devotion to the Blessed Virgin makes the path to Jesus smoother, how can we explain why Mary’s loyal servants are so ill-treated?

**154. ** I reaply that it is quite true that the most faithful servants of the Blessed Virgin, being her greatest favourites, receive from her the best graces and favours from heaven, which are crosses. But I maintain too that these servants of Mary bear their crosses with greater ease and gain more merit and glory. What could check another’s progres a thousand times over, or possibly bring about his downfall, does not balk them at all, but even helps them on their way.For this good Mother, filled with the grace and unction of the Holy Spirit, dips all the crosses she prepares for them in the honey of her maternal sweetness and the unction of pure love. They then readily swallow them as they would sugared almonds, though the crosses may be very bitter. I believe that anyone who wishes to be devout and live piously in Jesus will suffer persecution and will have a daily cross to carry.But he will never manage to carry a heavy cross, or carry it joyfully and perseveringly, without a trusting devotion to our Lady, who is the very sweetness of the cross. It is obvious that a person could not keep on eating without great effort unripe fruit which has not been sweetened.

Some saints who followed this devotion are St. Therese de Liseux, a Carmelite, she is called by some the “greatest saint of modern times.” Someone said that she once said that as she lay dying at 24 of tuberculosis, she said “I can suffer no more, for me, all suffering is joy.” Another saint who followed this devotion is St. Maximilian Maria, born Kolbe but changed his name to Maria to venerate the Immaculate Heart of Mary, he was a Polish Conventual Franciscan Friar who suffered tuberculosis, sheltered 2,000 Jews in his friary during the Holocaust, was taken to the Auschwitz Concentration camp where he offered to die in place of another person because that person had family and he did not, they starved him and dehydrated him, but he kept leading the men in songs and prayer and thoughts of Jesus and Mary in heaven, finally they killed him with a shot of carbolic acid. He is honored by the Jewish people as Righteous Among Nations jewishvirtuallibrary.org/jsource/biography/Kolbe.html.

And if we look carefully at the Scripture and at biblical history, I think this is true, and someone may correct me if I am wrong since I often am, only one of the 11 remaining apostles did not die a martyr’s death but lived to old age. To the best of my knowledge, he was boiled in oil but escaped unscathed, this apostle was the Beloved disciple John, who stayed at the Cross with the Sacred Heart of Jesus Christ, who Jesus said to him -** “Son, this is your Mother. Mother, this is your Son.”**

I will try to pray a most Holy Rosary for you today 🙂

May this post bring Glory to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary!! May the Holy Spirit grace us with the gifts he chooses for us through the Immaculate Heart of Mary!!

Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse. Come Holy Spirit, come by means of the powerful intercession of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, your well beloved spouse.

*Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with Thee. Blessed art Thou among women and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen. *
 
I try so hard to be a good person. I pray and believe. And then I look at others that are so evil and they are rewarded with so much.
Hebrews 12
4In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:
“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
6because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.”[a]

7Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? 8If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. 9Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! 10Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. [NIV]

Take heart! This is a good sign!
 
God is not doing this to you. He loves you. It will get better. Trust in him. Don’t fight God. Be patient. I could write a litany of things that I’ve been through. It was not God’s fault but mine. We live and we die and it hurts. God bless you and keep you.
 
Dear Livingpeace - here’s another phone number you can try - 1-800-804-3823. Please keep coming here and talking if no one answers to your liking.

Peace,

Gail
P.S. Keep in mind suicide is a mortal sin you won’t have a chance to recover from. It will take your temporary suffering and turn it into a permanent condition.
 
I am praying for you right now. God loves you so infinitely as you are His most precious child. In my life, I promise you I have been through many terrible things that have made me also ask the same questions that you are asking right now, but I promise it is just a season just like everything in life. You will eventually gain clarity on why you are going through this and it IS true that God will never give you more than you can handle. At the time of my dark season I truly believed that God had given me way more than I could handle and I had a break down, but the breakdown passed and I was finally able to see past the pain far enough to see some light of the future.

Be strong, you CAN handle this, you ARE handling this - you are coming here and posting a very brave message to seek some help about the way you are feeling and God has given you the capacity to do this. Sometimes from terrible moments we can later see a greater good. For me, it took me a long time to finally feel content, but when I look back the breakdown and the terrible things that I went through led me to the person that I am now, with the faith that I’d never change. I can attest to the fact that things can NEVER be so bad that you’d want to turn to suicide. God wants you to rejoice in His Holy Name. Seek comfort in Him.

Whenever I feel down (which I’ll be honest, I do quite often) I open up 2 Timothy 1:7 which reads;

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Maybe recite a daily prayer to St. Michael the Archangel which can be found here;

ourladyswarriors.org/prayer/michael.htm

Also, this following bible quote is from Ecclesiastes 3:1-15 and also helped me.

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:


2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance
,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away
,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end

Be well, trust in God. And if you need anything please keep posting back here. We will be praying for you fervently.

God bless you.
x
 
God doesn’t hate us - He created us with the knowledge that we are not perfect, and He KNOWS all - so He knew when creating us what we would do in our lives.

God is love. But the only thing repugnant to God is sin.
Ever hear that saying, “hate the sin - not the sinner”?

God does not hate YOU…He LOVES you. And anytime you feel down - remember that. We all feel the way you do at times - tlhat God has sent us one too many crosses. Where is He? Why doesn’t He answer? ---- We all know those frustrating moments. Anytime things get rough - don’t get down - look up in prayer. He’s watching - and waiting.

Please remember God LOVES YOU !
 
I’m praying for you, right now. And, no, God does not hate you. God wants to draw you to Himself more than you know. He rejoiced at your conception and loves you now. Call those hotline numbers. Keep checking in here.
 
FWIW, I’ll add a little to what others have said. In this life we experience separation from God-man having been cast out of the garden and all. It can be very hard at times and we can feel quite abandoned. But it can serve to increase our thirst for Him and also our distaste for the “things of the world”. A friend directed me to Psalm 73 about a year ago, thinking it applied to me, which it did. I’ve pondered it often ever since. In my case I believe that God, knowing I’ve “envied the arrogant”, wants me to struggle against these desires of the flesh until they’re conquered. Maybe this applies to you-I have no idea-but I thought I’d offer it.

**1Surely God is good to Israel,
to those who are pure in heart.
2 But as for me, my feet had almost slipped;
I had nearly lost my foothold.
3 For I envied the arrogant
when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. **

The rest of the psalm is worth reading. Also remember that, in any case, “He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.” Matt 5:45
 
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