I can see myself as a bishop or a Cardinal…mainly due to my hatred of Liberalism in Canada…but I’ve never felt a true calling to the priesthood.
We all experience a prideful fantasy from time to time “If only I were in charge!”, It is natural and common. I know I have daydreamed about it before myself - would that I were pope for a day! Thankfully, the Holy Spirit knows much better!
I’ve always felt a strong vocation towards the married life…but I still want to go to the seminary next year.
Well there are two questions to be asked here:
(1) are you considering presenting yourself as a candidate for priestly formation to simply to avail yourself of the environment of a priestly formation program?
(2) (Or) Are you considering attending seminary to gain a seminary education?
If it is the former, I would discourage that. If you are looking just to attend a seminary for your love of theology and learning outside of a priestly training program, by all means, look into it!
I think the solitude and the schedule and the strictly Catholic environment would do me a lot of good…but would this be wrong?
It could be very wrong.
I spent a year in seminary when I was discearning - something I don’t regret and was a good learning experience!
It certainly disabused me of the notion that a seminary or monsatic community is a place of spiritual refuge and peaceful harmony 24/7!
At times the food was awful,(actually, it was ALWAYS awful), keeping the constant company of the same men in prayer, classrooms, the refectory, in doing chores. recreation, parish visits… It could get grueling.
We were all very different men with different tastes, backgrounds, ages, nationalities. Some converts, some reverts, some cradle Catholic, some very ethnic, some born abroad, some who had never been out of their own time zone in the US. At different times (especially during Lent when the food was the worst and the chapel time was the longest!) charity could get VERY strained.
I formed some great frienship during these years and stay in touch with many that have and many that have not become priests. And MANY men (far more than were ever ordained) have benifited from years of discernment and study in seminaries…
Elder monks will tell you that even in monasteries of great holiness where silence is observed and much time is spent in prayer there are challenges of charity as bad or worse then in the secular world.
So my answer to you is, don’t see a priestly formation program as a spiritual sabatical. Don’t see seminary studies as
Don’t dioceses only want candidates who are serioulsy considering the priesthood?
They only want candidates discerning a priestly vocation studying for the priesthood.
BUT…
If your intent was simply to study theology, you would not go through a diocese, but rather apply directly to a seminary as a lay student looking to study theology.I know many lay men and women with no aspirations of orrdination or religous life who attend the Josephenum here in OH. Some are not even Catholic. But they do so out of a love for learning theology.
Look into it! Maybe God is calling you to scholarship. You don’t have to be a priest or in formation to learn and teach and seve Christ. Karl Keating (who did not attend seminary) comes to mind as an excellent example of the joys and benifits of learning and writing about theology.