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PaulV
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Hello. Good afternoon to you all. I didn´t know where to put this thread, but as it has to do with sin and temptation I decided to put it here.
I begin by saying this is more a question than a conversation. The main idea is this: does it seem to you that I have may have some level of internal/external influence from the devil?
Let me explain: I was merely eight when I began to develop some kind of mental disorder (I´m male), the first of way too many: deadly ashamed of my chest being seen, then unable to speak in front of certain people, the number of whom began growing, then addiction, and obsesive thoughts, and so on. But this could be explained medically, I don´t know. The movies I´ve seen, the violent scenes, the sex in porn, all this stuck with me. The thoughts dance around in my head and I feel as if a devil is playing with my mind to torment me. I, of course, go to a psychiatrist and take four kinds of medication. But I´ve had nightmares with the devil and I´ve felt an angry presence around me sometimes, making everything worse and clouding my thoughts.
Daily recitation of the rosary and reading helps me. But I feel it just contains it. I have to trust in Jesus completely. He is my salvation.
Again, I´m sorry for taking your time in times like these, but my main interest here is getting and answer on if I could have an influence (of course not possesion).
Thank you very much in advance and I will have you in my prayers. Please pray for my nephew, my pastor, my sister, my parents, Peru, Arequipa, me and my in laws.
I begin by saying this is more a question than a conversation. The main idea is this: does it seem to you that I have may have some level of internal/external influence from the devil?
Let me explain: I was merely eight when I began to develop some kind of mental disorder (I´m male), the first of way too many: deadly ashamed of my chest being seen, then unable to speak in front of certain people, the number of whom began growing, then addiction, and obsesive thoughts, and so on. But this could be explained medically, I don´t know. The movies I´ve seen, the violent scenes, the sex in porn, all this stuck with me. The thoughts dance around in my head and I feel as if a devil is playing with my mind to torment me. I, of course, go to a psychiatrist and take four kinds of medication. But I´ve had nightmares with the devil and I´ve felt an angry presence around me sometimes, making everything worse and clouding my thoughts.
Daily recitation of the rosary and reading helps me. But I feel it just contains it. I have to trust in Jesus completely. He is my salvation.
Again, I´m sorry for taking your time in times like these, but my main interest here is getting and answer on if I could have an influence (of course not possesion).
Thank you very much in advance and I will have you in my prayers. Please pray for my nephew, my pastor, my sister, my parents, Peru, Arequipa, me and my in laws.