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I have been struggling with sins of impurity for 20+ years. I’m negative most of the time, I’m a bad husband, bad father, bad son, brother, co-worker, etc., etc. I have depression, anxiety, mitral valve prolapse, I’m $8,000.00 in credit card debt, my nerves are shot. I can’t seem to do anything right anymore. I go to mass on Sunday’s, twice a week, adoration, confession, pray daily. I just am not happy, I should be. Things never do seem to go right for me. I can’t afford to see a shrink, I know I need to, my wife and I are facing our second bankruptcy, mostly my fault (buying religious books, etc.). I constantly feel agitated, I loose my cool at the drop of a hat. I got in a stupid fight with my wife this morning. I even cussed God out on my way to work after slamming the front door at home and squeeling my tired. I have a bad temper, did I mention how selfish I am?? Impatient. Ungrateful. I consecrated my heart to Mary’s Immaculate heart 3-25-04, I have 5 kids 8 and under. I can’t take it anymore. I don’t have time to do anything, I can’t do anything right. Why when I pray to God does this continue to happen? Things get worse and worse, I’m getting worse, everyone I know suffers because of me, I can’t seem to shake it. I’m going to adoration tonight, what should I say or do?