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After much thought and prayer, I am not able to decide what to do about my situation.

In college, I played baseball on scholarship as an outfielder, and was “red-shirted” my Freshman year. This allowed me to take a boatload of classes, and by the time I reached year 4 of college, I was ready to graduate. However, according to NCAA rules, I was still considered a Junior and had one year of elegibility left, so I graduated, and for my 5th and final year I went ahead and finished my minor as a second degree so I could still play Baseball.

After graduation of the 2nd degree in the spring of the 5th year, my college baseball team was playing in the conference tournament in June.

The catcher of the other team was a loud obnoxious guy, constantly talking trash, and we actually saw him signal to his pitcher to intentionally hit one of our batters. The next time I batted, I got to second base, and the following batter hit a single to the outfield, so I made a dash for home plate.

now the NCAA has a “slide or veer” rule where you can’t hit the catcher like a football player, which you CAN do in the Major Leauges. I chose to ignore that rule, and wanted to teach him a lesson. The catcher was about to catch the ball at home plate, and I hit him full force like a defensive back, completely blindsided.

He was knocked completely unconscious, and I fractured 4 of his ribs, one of which puntured his lung, as well as 2 of his vertebrae. I was thrown out of the game, and kicked off the team too.

The catcher spent about 15 weeks in the hospital and rehab, but come to find out, the doctors missed clotting at the puncture site, and about 2 weeks ago he went into cardiac arrest. The medical examiner determined a clot broke loose and he died of an embolism. One of my old teammates emailed me a link to his obituary and a article detailing his death.

I realize that hitting him like that wasn’t right, but at the moment it seemed like good and fair payback for having his pitcher throw a ball into the head of our batter. I never intended for him to die. I shouldn’t have done it at all.

The district attorney for the state wanted to file charges against me, but because athletic competitions during actual play of the game are exempted from state laws concerning bodily injury and assault, they couldn’t prosecute.

But I keep wondering if it is the doctor’s faults more than mine. Aren’t the they the ones that missed such a bad condition? I don’t know who is really ultimately responsible, and I don’t know what I should do.

I can’t serve jail time for what I did, so what other options are there? Normally, the NCAA imposes penalities of requiring the institution of the athlete to remove them from competition, AND sometimes prevent them from graduating or recieving a degree until the NCAA decides reparations are made.

However, I had already recieved both of my degrees, so the only thing they could do was prohibit me from ever attending another NCAA event. I didn’t recieve much civil penalty either.

I honestly don’t know what to do. Before I knew he died, I just realized that I made a bad choice. Now I realize that I probably am culpable in his death. How do I make amends with God? And is there any way to make up for what I did?
 
Wow, how terrible. I’m sorry about this. I’m sure you’ve gone to confession and God forgives you. I suggest also that you seek some counseling. I don’t blame you for feeling guilty, but you’re going to eventually need to forgive yourself, as God has forgiven you.
 
Spiritual counseling from a priest (with confession) and psychological counseling from a therapist who has experience in grief management seem to be your best avenues to reach some sort of resolution for this matter.

Whenever one plays a role in the death of another person, no matter what the extent, it takes a lot of help to come to terms with the decisions made and to learn how to live with them. It is not something one can do on one’s own, trust me, but thank the Lord for the Catholic Church and the wise counsel Jesus left in Her care to share with us, His faithful.

Spend some time at Eucharistic Adoration. Jesus is there to help you through this. He will carry your burden for you, you have only to offer it up to Him.

May the peace of Jesus Christ be with you now and always.

YYM
 
The advice of the other posters is excellent.
I also have shared in responsibility for someone’s death (authorizing an abortion). It is a burden that you carry with you for a lifetime. In the heat of the moment, or in the ignorance of youth, it is easy to make unwise choices that we have to live with.
The only help is in Reconciliation and asking God for the grace to live a life more worthy of Him, and to do one’s best to avoid such situations.
I will pray for you.
 
I agree that counselling is the way to go. To be responsible for someone’s death, especially when it was so recent, is a huge burden to bear and really needs a professional with experience to give you the help you need. Being able to move on in both forgiving yourself and being able to live your life are what you need to do now. God has already forgiven you. I haven’t got anything helpful to add, but I really do feel for you. Maybe in future you might feel better if you apologise to the family for your part in it but it is probably too fresh for them right now. All the best. I will pray for you.
 
First off - don’t look for blame. Yes, you did contribute to his death - do not try and blame the doctors more than yourself and also do not blame yourself more than the doctors.

Now, you said what can you do since you cannot serve jail time, indicating that you wanted to DO something ( I am not talking about confession, counseling etc - though those are important). What you can do is this: serve your community in some manner - volunteer at a homeless shelter, work with abused children, work with senior citizens who have no family etc. etc. etc. You can also, if they will let you, do something to serve the family of the man who died. The point is: Get out there and do some good for the world.

Good luck -
HOM
 
You might also want to speak with your priest about offering a plenary indulgence for this young man who died. There is some groundwork you will need to do to prepare your soul to be in the position to fulfill the requirements of the plenary indulgence, but you will find healing along the way, especially with the guidance of the priest. When you are able to meet the requirements for the plenary indulgence for this man you will have given him the gift of New Life as he will be released from purgatory and brought to the full glory of God. Of course, that’s only if the man was a baptized Catholic. If he was not, then I’m sure your priest can show you other ways to help his soul through prayer/fasting/service/almsgiving.
 
well as a former college baseball player myself, about 6 years ago, it looks to me like you absolutely went about this the wrong way.
  1. the other team’s pitcher was hitting your batters intentionally, but you decided to pay back the catcher.
–without considering morality and Catholicism, true Baseball “etiquette” would require you to reply in a manner consistent with the original trangression. i.e., YOUR team’s pitcher returns the favor to the other team. running over the catcher when it is against the rules isnt just cause to hitting batters intentionally. you went way above and beyond.
  1. the “slide or veer” rule (which is ridiculous in itself since Abner Doubleday’s original rules allowed for plowing the catcher) was IN PLACE already inside the game. IF hitting the catcher was allowed, then you would bear absolutely no blame. but since you did knowingly break a rule, then the consequences do fall on you.
  2. while it is unfortunate the player died, you cannot be held responsible for the malpractice of the doctors. 15 weeks in the care of professionals, and they MISSED it? you did however, PLACE him in that situation, but other people CONTRIBUTED to it by their incompetency.
The normal guidelines for punishment from the NCAA would be degree withholding or expulsion from school. since you state you were in postseason play, and could not recieve punishment because you were already graduated, then none was applied.

HOWEVER, you can self-impose sanctions against yourself. that is, pretend your second degree was revoked, and do not list it on any job applications, do not accept pay raises that might come because you have a second degree. do not apply for jobs in the field of your second degree, and only obtain jobs related to your first.

if your degrees are related, then just accept or take jobs where you would fulfill the requirements and qualifications using ONLY your first degree.

inform your priest of this “revocation”, and suggest to him that he could “re-grant” the degree when he feels that you have made serious attempts at reconciliation and penence.

its just a suggestions, but it might help you to make serious attempts as reconciling how things turned out.
 
This certainly is a heavy burden to carry. We have all made poor choices but rarely do they culminate in the death of another. I agree with the other poster who suggested that you apologize to this man’s family to show them some sign of your remorse for your contribution to his death. Talk it over with your therapist (get one if you don’t have one already). Praying for the soul of this young man would also be very appropriate. You’ve unintentionally contributed to his earthly death, hopefully you can contribute to his entrance into heaven.
 
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Willy_Mays-Hays:
After much thought and prayer, I am not able to decide what to do about my situation…

How do I make amends with God?

Contrition, Confession and penance.

And is there any way to make up for what I did?

Not completely, no. You have the responsibility, however, of changing your life through this experience to bring about some good from it. Is there some good that can come from this experience that you now have a unique capability of sharing to the benefit of others?
 
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