Dear Ben,
You might find it helpful to read the texts of Jesus in the Garden of Olives. Jesus was certainly suffering greatly in anticipation of his arrest and torture, and He asked the prayers and company of His three closest friends, who promptly fell asleep instead.
To have fears and anxieties is human. We know bad things can happen.
As the old man said, though,
“I’ve had a lot of worries in my life.
Most of them never happened.”
Jesus asked to escape the suffering, but concluded with Matthew 26:39.
“
My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” That is true trust in God. Being afraid but still trusting God.
See Matthew 26, 36-39.
" Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to his disciples, "Sit here, while I go over there and pray."And taking with him Peter and) the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled. Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch with me.” And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”
Of course you will continue to pray regarding your anxiety and continue to make acts of faith, but also try to train your brain and emotions to be more positive and trusting…while remember that trust in God is faith even when you
can’t be sure things will go as you wish, because your Father in Heaven knows what is necessary for your salvation and well-being and that of others within your influence, and more often than not, we ourselves don’t really know what is best in God’s sight.
God bless and protect you!
