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Is this normal for spiritualism with God/Jesus?
My therapist is Christian. They were brought up Christian orthodox then change to Christian.
I was brought up Catholic but I didn’t have a positive experience in the sense Catholic schools. I was builled really badly at this all girl catholic school to the point I had 6 weeks off from school. Then I changed to a public school.Plus my mum left the catholic church when my parents were divorced and we went to this I call it crazy put your hands up in the air cry church. They always talked how bad the devil was. It affected before I was diagnosed my OCD.
Then we stopped going to church.
Anyway, I wanted to get back to my faith. Abit conflict in myself. Like if God was real, is there a hell?
Will I go to hell? Does God punish me when I do some thing wrong? Or if I get religious will it prokoke my OCD? I went to see my therapist.I told her my habit looking on YouTube at ghost hunters videos since teenager. It would really scare me afterwards. To be honsent I looked at it because I was literally bored and seeking spiritualism.So my therapist went over the side effects its unhelpful for me to look at ghost video. Like increase anxiety.Then she asked me to do mindfulness with my emotions. It’s what I learnt in Dailet Behaviour therapy, its to treat people who experience Borderline personality disorder.
Anyway during the session she asked to talk to Jesus Christ and how Jesus said to me " I need someone to guide me" , “you need to come closer to me spiritually " the frist step was my therapist” , “you can find a church” and start by praying with me. I want to hear about your day" . It literally felt like that he was sittingbeside me on the sofa. In my mind visually he was sitting beside holding my hand. It felt encouraging warm and love.How it felt he was filling the void that my mum was unable to fulfill.
Also how to pray to be thankful for what I have.
I did say in the session I’m anxious what I’m talking to a demon and ks pretending to be Jesus. My therapist asked me to ask Jesus so I asked " Do you come in the name of Jesus Christ" then Jesus said " I am the Lord" pointing up to the sky with his index finger.During that time I told my therapist that Jesus told me I have the spirit of fear. How I believe that because when I use to work at a library this lady who husband was a Christian minister told me I had the spirit of fear. So she told me to breath out air cause spirits work through air. To breath out negative and to breath in God and to accept Jesus. I just felt my hands going up to a fist and my forearms felt hot.Eventually it went away. My therapist told that the fear wasn’t mine and was never to hold on too. Which made my eyes watery.
She told me at the end of therapy. That what she did is on the borderline of not psychology. If I told another therapist about this they be like “she did that?” eyes rollsShe told me she did it because she believes I’m worth more than therapy.
What’s your thoughts on this? Is this normal to experience this?
My therapist is Christian. They were brought up Christian orthodox then change to Christian.
I was brought up Catholic but I didn’t have a positive experience in the sense Catholic schools. I was builled really badly at this all girl catholic school to the point I had 6 weeks off from school. Then I changed to a public school.Plus my mum left the catholic church when my parents were divorced and we went to this I call it crazy put your hands up in the air cry church. They always talked how bad the devil was. It affected before I was diagnosed my OCD.
Then we stopped going to church.
Anyway, I wanted to get back to my faith. Abit conflict in myself. Like if God was real, is there a hell?
Will I go to hell? Does God punish me when I do some thing wrong? Or if I get religious will it prokoke my OCD? I went to see my therapist.I told her my habit looking on YouTube at ghost hunters videos since teenager. It would really scare me afterwards. To be honsent I looked at it because I was literally bored and seeking spiritualism.So my therapist went over the side effects its unhelpful for me to look at ghost video. Like increase anxiety.Then she asked me to do mindfulness with my emotions. It’s what I learnt in Dailet Behaviour therapy, its to treat people who experience Borderline personality disorder.
Anyway during the session she asked to talk to Jesus Christ and how Jesus said to me " I need someone to guide me" , “you need to come closer to me spiritually " the frist step was my therapist” , “you can find a church” and start by praying with me. I want to hear about your day" . It literally felt like that he was sittingbeside me on the sofa. In my mind visually he was sitting beside holding my hand. It felt encouraging warm and love.How it felt he was filling the void that my mum was unable to fulfill.
Also how to pray to be thankful for what I have.
I did say in the session I’m anxious what I’m talking to a demon and ks pretending to be Jesus. My therapist asked me to ask Jesus so I asked " Do you come in the name of Jesus Christ" then Jesus said " I am the Lord" pointing up to the sky with his index finger.During that time I told my therapist that Jesus told me I have the spirit of fear. How I believe that because when I use to work at a library this lady who husband was a Christian minister told me I had the spirit of fear. So she told me to breath out air cause spirits work through air. To breath out negative and to breath in God and to accept Jesus. I just felt my hands going up to a fist and my forearms felt hot.Eventually it went away. My therapist told that the fear wasn’t mine and was never to hold on too. Which made my eyes watery.
She told me at the end of therapy. That what she did is on the borderline of not psychology. If I told another therapist about this they be like “she did that?” eyes rollsShe told me she did it because she believes I’m worth more than therapy.
What’s your thoughts on this? Is this normal to experience this?