I felt so called to pray for you. I really do understand how you’re feeling. Since my mom died 14 years ago, I have been in and out of the hospital. Been suffering from depression as well. I too would just cry and think I didn’t want to live anymore.
All I can say is, don’t EVER give up! You are NEVER alone. Jesus is with you now and always. He will never leave you or forsake you. He loves you SO MUCH. Even when it’s really hard to see him or feel him because of our suffering and darkness, rest assure, he is the one helping you carry the crosses in your life. You might not understand why God is allowing all of this to happen right now, just know that he makes everything work for a greater good (Romans 8:28) and that your suffering will be fruitful. He will make you stronger in the end and if you offer up your suffering to him, he can use it to help your loved ones and people in the world that most need prayers.
Please reach out to someone you trust. If you’ve been feeling depressed it is so important to see someone, a school counsellor, or a doctor. If you have a family doctor you can see them or even a drop in clinic. It’s important to have someone to talk to about what you’re feeling and if needed they can help you with therapy, support groups, medication etc.
From another person who’s going through what you’re going through. Just know, it does get better! After finding God again 3 1/2 years ago, I found true happiness and joy in my heart. That even though life is hard and not easy, having a intimate relationship with God and serving him has brought me the happiness I’ve been longing for. He truly can heal all our brokenness and make it beautiful
Lord God I lift up to you, your beloved child. I pray that you give them the comfort to know that you are with them now and you’ve always been with them. Lord, I pray that whatever sadness or depression they’re feeling, that you will heal them Lord. I pray Lord you give them peace in their heart so they can feel no anxiety or worry, that they can get a good night’s sleep. That Lord, they can get through their exams in school.
Our Father,
Who art in heaven,
hallowed be Thy name;
Thy kingdom come;
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread;
and forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit,
as it was in the beginning,
is now, and ever shall be,
world without end.
Amen
