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PelagiathePenit
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It has been 6-7 years since I have felt the call to be a nun. I really want to pursue it. I am afraid my family will laugh. My best friend thought I was being dramatic. The more I think about it the more I will do it. I feel like that is a safe place to take my faith seriously. They have many reasons to not take me seriously. For one, I AM VERY BOY-CRAZY AND VAIN. I do not usually follow through with things. I have the most sexual experience from my sister’s but for secular standards I am innocent. I have managed to maintain my virginity. What are the best prayers for discernment? What if this is another one of my dramatic phases? I do not know. I am scared to pursue it. The standards for Godly behavior is high and I think I will not be able to achieve my full potential living in a secular community. It is SO easy to downplay or become blind to sin when others around you could care less. Or too feel content with yourself if you are not as bad as most people are.