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frank17
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Hello everyone this is my first post in the forum. I used to be very afraid of lusting , let alone masturbate, but i have fallen in this terrible vice and now i can say that i am almost powerless over the urge to do it everyday. I recently converted to catholicism, even though i was raised in the church, i decided on the beginnig of august to fully give in to religion. and i became scrupulous. which is one of the most painfull conditions there is . it is a torment of the soul. i didnt masturbate for 3 months, but one day in a support group, i questioned my religion, because the topic was how God is loving and some one was sharing how they used to be terrified of God (i know fear of God is good) . so this is it, now i am scrupulous, but i seem to have found my weakness in masturbating, i will try again tomorrow not to do it, but i have like the thread says almost lost the fear of doing it. even though i feel terrified when i lust, i do it anyway. its like a desinsization when i expose myself enough to the fear i loose the fear but in a bad way. i am also a little stressed out since i am going to mass a lot and doing a lot of service in the church and i dont know, i dont know what REST is . we are in advent the time when we are suppose to get closer to Jesus, but i just cant relax.