I have studied Catholicism for some time now and feel a very strong pull in that direction. One of my dilemmas is the Eucharist. Coming from a Lutheran background I have always believed that Jesus Christ is present in the Eucharist, this is where my difficulty lies. I have no objections to the Catholic understanding of the Eucharist; in fact I have found the depth of the Catholic view to be very refreshing. However, the Catholic rejects the validity of the Lutheran Mass. To become a Catholic is to say that what I have received and venerated as Christ was merely bread and wine, this would make me into a monstrous idolater. It is in some ways quite ironic to have become to doubt the Eucharist, as celebrated by Protestants, due to sympathy with a Catholic understanding of the church. It’s so difficult because I long for the Eucharist yet I’m not quite ready to make the jump. In the meantime, I find the Catholic mass to be awkward and the Lutheran mass to be filled with doubts. Any insight or comments especially from converts from churches with a high Eucharistic view would be greatly appreciated.
I too came from a LCMS background.
Consider this, when a Catholic cannot receive the Eucharist at mass (illness, let’s say), we recognize that that person can receive the grace that the Sacrament provides by making a “spiritual communion” with the rest of the congregation and the Lord. Even thought the reception of the consecrated host and wine is the outward sign of the sacrament, there is the more important inner spiritual communion with our Lord.
This is very similar to the notion of “Baptism by desire”, where one can receive the graces of Baptism without actually participating in the Baptism rite.
That’s not to say that these are “outs”, or ways of skirting around the Sacramental form and norms in order to receive a measure of grace. However, we legitimately recognize a desire to “connect” with our Lord as a valid means of receiving grace.
However, with this in mind, you might want to reflect on this notion. To say that your reception of the Lord’s Supper was idolatrous is incorrect, methinks. To say that you didn’t receive any grace through that “sacrament” (defined as a sacrament by Lutherans but not by Catholics for reasons mentioned in other posts) is also incorrect.
I would suggest looking on your reception of the Lord’s Supper as an “incomplete” rite; it isn’t totally worthless or idolatrous, it helped you connect with our Lord and receive grace in a similar way that prayer does. It may be helpful to look then as reception of the Eucharist in the Catholic Church as a complete rite, a more complete bonding with our Lord than what was available to you previously.
You might also want to search for threads on “Communion by desire” or similar wording for some more insight.
I looked at my 30-some years as an LCMS Lutheran as training for becoming Catholic.
