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LightFury
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I have been married since 2016, so it’ll be three years soon, and I’m having marital relation issues. We’re both in our mid-20s, and we have a 6-month baby girl. We’ve been together a total of five years (2013).
My husband and I have relations maybe 2-4 times a month, and approximately a quarter of the time he doesn’t finish. He usually says that he’s too tired. He may be, but it still makes me feel as if I’m insufficient. If I can’t please him sufficiently in 5-15 minutes, there must be something wrong with me, correct? I already feel as if I’m the least attractive woman my age (which, just by looking at the women I see in church, is mostly true); this certainly doesn’t help.
In addition, I went six months in 2018 without any intimacy because my husband was at basic training. I was 6 weeks pregnant when he left, and pregnancy really upped my sex drive, which was excruciating. Now I feel almost as if I’m reliving that time again, and I’m losing my mind.
While these issues started almost 2 years ago, now there may be something new to the mix. My husband knows I eventually want another baby, and I think he might also be holding off because I’m not on birth control and he doesn’t want me to get pregnant. I don’t think he’s open to having a larger family, even though I am willing to compromise on a maximum of two children for him. He pulls out, which I do not morally agree with, but it’s another compromise.
My sexual frustration is through the roof, and I find my eyes straying even though I hate it and I feel dirty for doing so. I’ve prayed continuously for God to take away my temptations and impure thoughts, but they are so intrusive I can’t keep up. It’s very frustrating, because I hear about so many men who wish their wives were more interested in sexual intimacy, and here I am over here by myself with intense sexual frustration that isn’t being fulfilled. I feel like the only woman in the world with this problem.
What do I do? How do I endure?
My husband and I have relations maybe 2-4 times a month, and approximately a quarter of the time he doesn’t finish. He usually says that he’s too tired. He may be, but it still makes me feel as if I’m insufficient. If I can’t please him sufficiently in 5-15 minutes, there must be something wrong with me, correct? I already feel as if I’m the least attractive woman my age (which, just by looking at the women I see in church, is mostly true); this certainly doesn’t help.
In addition, I went six months in 2018 without any intimacy because my husband was at basic training. I was 6 weeks pregnant when he left, and pregnancy really upped my sex drive, which was excruciating. Now I feel almost as if I’m reliving that time again, and I’m losing my mind.
While these issues started almost 2 years ago, now there may be something new to the mix. My husband knows I eventually want another baby, and I think he might also be holding off because I’m not on birth control and he doesn’t want me to get pregnant. I don’t think he’s open to having a larger family, even though I am willing to compromise on a maximum of two children for him. He pulls out, which I do not morally agree with, but it’s another compromise.
My sexual frustration is through the roof, and I find my eyes straying even though I hate it and I feel dirty for doing so. I’ve prayed continuously for God to take away my temptations and impure thoughts, but they are so intrusive I can’t keep up. It’s very frustrating, because I hear about so many men who wish their wives were more interested in sexual intimacy, and here I am over here by myself with intense sexual frustration that isn’t being fulfilled. I feel like the only woman in the world with this problem.
What do I do? How do I endure?
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