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MJDorry
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Hello all!
I’m certain there are innumerable threads almost exactly like my own, but a quick search was not quite satisfying. Please excuse the title. I mean no disrespect by it.
I’ve been slowly transitioning into Catholicism, having attended more than a few handfuls of Latin Masses. I was vaguely “Born-Again” as a young boy because of a few Summers with my father, but it never stuck. By my late teens, I was anti-Christian and what can best be described as Agnostic. I won’t go into what I believed specifically, but it was of the “God is Love and Love is God”, but God is disinterested variety. Then I slowly became a non-believing sort of apologist in college, having lifted a few ideas from Aquinas and Augustine, and having read CS Lewis’s “The Problem of Pain”. I came into faith by necessity–Up until October of 2011, I had been into smoking cannabis, but after a short series of none-too-pleasant experiences, my last one left me feeling as though reality would disintegrate in front of my very eyes. I had nothing left of me, except one small hardly-alive grain of something that said to start praying.
I never received any sort of relief from prayer and still haven’t. I suffer de-realization, and it seems to be chronic as opposed to acute. But even though my transition has been arid and almost without a single quenching droplet, I am almost certain that this is it. Catholicism is It. That said, I have many doubts. One of the highest among them is Marian devotion.
I want to be clear that I understand–and by extension, myself try to impress–the significance of Mary as a stainless human, the Mother of God and Mother to all, the woman to give Christ his humanity, the intimate relationship between the two, and the intercession of Saints. Although I find the evidence for the latter to be scant, I accept that it has essentially been dogma from almost the beginning. That said, I simply cannot find it within myself to accept as true Mary’s Assumption and even more, her proposed position as Queen of Heaven.
While these were almost held by all in mainstream Catholic thought, if not more so in extreme contemplative circles, it wasn’t dogma until the 1950s. I understand Papal Infallibility, but I still find the decree questionable and at this point, I don’t see that Mary’s Assumption was implicit in any of the Sacred Scripture used to support the claim. I don’t see it, and it’s most certainly not explicit.
If someone could take the time to explain it all, thoroughly and patiently, I would greatly appreciate it. One of my greatest concerns is inadvertently offending Christ, so I currently find myself in a bit of spiritual bind.
I’m certain there are innumerable threads almost exactly like my own, but a quick search was not quite satisfying. Please excuse the title. I mean no disrespect by it.
I’ve been slowly transitioning into Catholicism, having attended more than a few handfuls of Latin Masses. I was vaguely “Born-Again” as a young boy because of a few Summers with my father, but it never stuck. By my late teens, I was anti-Christian and what can best be described as Agnostic. I won’t go into what I believed specifically, but it was of the “God is Love and Love is God”, but God is disinterested variety. Then I slowly became a non-believing sort of apologist in college, having lifted a few ideas from Aquinas and Augustine, and having read CS Lewis’s “The Problem of Pain”. I came into faith by necessity–Up until October of 2011, I had been into smoking cannabis, but after a short series of none-too-pleasant experiences, my last one left me feeling as though reality would disintegrate in front of my very eyes. I had nothing left of me, except one small hardly-alive grain of something that said to start praying.
I never received any sort of relief from prayer and still haven’t. I suffer de-realization, and it seems to be chronic as opposed to acute. But even though my transition has been arid and almost without a single quenching droplet, I am almost certain that this is it. Catholicism is It. That said, I have many doubts. One of the highest among them is Marian devotion.
I want to be clear that I understand–and by extension, myself try to impress–the significance of Mary as a stainless human, the Mother of God and Mother to all, the woman to give Christ his humanity, the intimate relationship between the two, and the intercession of Saints. Although I find the evidence for the latter to be scant, I accept that it has essentially been dogma from almost the beginning. That said, I simply cannot find it within myself to accept as true Mary’s Assumption and even more, her proposed position as Queen of Heaven.
While these were almost held by all in mainstream Catholic thought, if not more so in extreme contemplative circles, it wasn’t dogma until the 1950s. I understand Papal Infallibility, but I still find the decree questionable and at this point, I don’t see that Mary’s Assumption was implicit in any of the Sacred Scripture used to support the claim. I don’t see it, and it’s most certainly not explicit.
If someone could take the time to explain it all, thoroughly and patiently, I would greatly appreciate it. One of my greatest concerns is inadvertently offending Christ, so I currently find myself in a bit of spiritual bind.