Please stay on your meds and follow your doctor’s orders. As others have said taking medication is perfectly fine.
Brenden, this is a cross that you have to bear, at least for now, maybe for the rest of your life. Please use it to your advantage. I think being sad that things aren’t the way they were before is a normal thing, however, you can turn this cross into a blessing. God always wants to turn bad things into good, evil into blessings. So pray. Ask Him him to help you. Let him know that you want to offer it up and ask Him to help you to do that. He will. I’m not saying it will be easy, but it can be a blessing if you are willing. Treasure in heaven is always better than anything we have or can gain here but many times there are consolations here as well.
God Bless you, and I’ll pray for you.