Fakename, your new questions indicate precisely the issues I wrote about.
You write:
“1) isn’t it a mark of a good man to risk insanity to have only a moment of goodness in return?”
–NO. It is NOT “the mark of a good man to risk insanity,” and I can’t image why you would think otherwise.
“isn’t it a vice to fear madness when you have a chance to be good?”
–No, and the fact that you think it might be a vice to fear madness, quite frankly, indicates that you are seeing vices - just as you are seeing sins - where there are none.
“2) Granted that the mind is inscrutable, there seems to be 3 tiers of the mind: the conscious (realm of thoughts, ideas, the denotation), the semi-conscious (realm of feelings, and connotations), and the realm of semblances (the shadows of the conscious which seem to appear to be ideas and images but are only faintly glimpsed). Of these three tiers, which ones are fitting subjects for examination?”
–I don’t know where you are deciding there are “3 tiers of the mind.”
People don’t live life this way, where they talk about “distinguishing” “image of a sin, and therefore is unable to distinguish it from the semi or the conscious mind, then should this be evidence?” With due respect, your post makes no sense, and I belive you should have a serious talk with your confessor (and ask him about OCD) about how you examine your conscience.
** Frankly I find self-analysis to be fascinating and a good use of one’s time -apparentlyn no one else notices the three tiers; a fact that is beyond me. But let me explain: clearly between two extremes there is a middle ground. But in the mind there are two extremes (1) the clearly comprehended and (2) the none-existent and only generically grasped. So there is a middle ground (3) the phantasms and half-remembered ideas. So clearly there are three tiers to the mind.
Secondly as the for the sanity being worse than morality thing, again I’m surprised and I’d like to see your argument for saying that the good is worse than sanity.
My own thesis is that sanity is worse than morality and so, sanity is worth giving up for the latter. This is clear from several observations: 1) life itself is less preferable than the good, wherefore martyrdom is highly esteemed. So a fortoriori that is, much more so would it follow that sanity (a part of life) is less preferable to goodness. 2) Socrates was infected with a divine madness and whatever a wise man does should be imitated everything being equal. Indeed this philosopher states that not all madness is bad but some is sent as a god-like inspiration.
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