A strong desire to do Catholic missions and medical service in the developing world is rarely a trick of the devil, as why would the devil inspire that desire? According to the spiritual exercises of St. Ignatius, God generally speaks to you through your desires. Given that, it seems this probably IS my vocation, which is why it makes sense to ask questions regarding the practical efficacy on this forum. Whether something is ârareâ or not is not an indication of the will of God, who has created a billion souls that are all completely unique and distinct from each other. And it is extremely rare for someone to by crystal clear regarding what IS the will of God for someoneâs life. Generally speaking, you wonât find THAT out with perfect certainty until Heaven.
No, no. Your desire to do mission work is GOOD. And you are right, it is rare that someone has a perfect knowledge of what, exactly, God wants them to do for the rest of your life. If you have a desire to do some type of teaching/medical work here at home, but also the desire to do missionary work, it just means you have to further discern.
There are several options. Perhaps you would get involved in a ministry in your home country, and God would perhaps lead you to a greater knowledge that this is your calling. Or join a lay missionary group and work in mission territory for a year. Perhaps that experience will lead you to a greater clarity.
There is nothing wrong with having multiple desires. You should follow the stronger ones, explore them more deeply, and pray about it. You will gain more clarity in prayer and in time.
It is true though, that one should never enter a religious community with the intention of leaving when one becomes more interested in a different ministry. If both desires persist, maybe you should look into a community that serves both in your home country and in the missions, ask what there policy is (whether the person has any choice about where to serve, or whether it is purely up to the superiors) and then just put it in Godâs hands. Maybe God will ask you to give up one desire as a sacrifice to Him and follow your superiorâs decision, even if at the time it isnât pleasing to you. God gives so much grace to us through obedience, ESPECIALLY when it is very hard
May God bless you in your discernment. What a joy to feel called to give up EVERYTHING, even our own will, for His greater glory! Praised be Jesus Christ!
In Christ through Mary,
Frank