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AnnaD
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I have 4 kids , 2 with my husband and 2 with my previous relationship of 8 years. I’ve always been completely against abortion until I found out I was pregnant with my 5th baby. I felt pitted, when that test showed positive. I told myself I could never ever abort a baby. It’s Wrong. I became really sick with morning sickness and I lost my mind. I became angry I think. I couldn’t take care of my other kids or my home. I made an appointment at an abortion clinic, but bawled and they sent me home. As I dealt with sickness the next week, I knew I needed to go back. I felt numb when I went into the clinic yesterday. I was still very early along. Around 8 weeks. I took the first pill. On the drive home i almost felt relief, in the back of my head and heart something was off. I pushed it away. Today I took the second pill. In the shower I saw my baby. It was too small to tell whether or not it was a boy or girl, but I picked her/him up and I bawled. It hit me all at once what I had done. I hate how selfish of a choice I made. It had a little tongue and hands, it’s little feet weren’t Developed fully yet, but little webs where they started, I prayed for what would have been my baby. I don’t know how I can live with what I’ve done. I researched that the baby at 8 weeks has no feeling and no conciousness, There’s just the start of a synapse to begin developing the brain, and that’s what got me through taking that Pill/ abortion, knowing I wouldn’t be hurting the baby, it was too early, but I will never get the image of my tiny coin sized baby out of my head. I wish i could go back and I Have cried and apologized. I kissed my tiny little baby. I prayed ,hoping God will take her/him into his arms. What is wrong with me? How could I do what I just did? Please just pray for my sweet innocent baby.
