My Bad Attempt to Fight Off These Pesky Scruples

[S_V7]

I need some clarification since I’m having a hard time getting my thoughts straight. Ok here’s what happened:

I was going to get a pet fish which made me feel happy Some good-looking lady passed by who looked like someone I knew and I was just in a good mood and watched her walk by thinking about how much she looked like this person I knew. And of course it was imminent that my scruples showed up but I just brushed them away and kept noticing the resemblence between her and the other person. But the more I thought about it, the louder the ’ it’s a sin’ voice got but I kept ignoring it assuming that again it was just being scrupulous (which i probably was) and since I’m just so tired of them I fought them off and continued to watch the lady and prove my scruples wrong. Well that didn’t go so well and when I finally began to consider it being a sin ( something like looking inappropriatly at someone of the same sex or something ), I freaked out and looked away. All of this happened in less than 5 seconds or so and by the end I had that nauseus feeling that usually follows but I figured, again, just scrupules and ruled off mortal sin. But since I’m having a hard time getting my head straight because of other things, I decided to post and see what others thought.

Sorry for yet another scrupulous rant, I just love to ramble on these forums, very liberating

 

[Magicsilence]

If I see a good looking lady, I just look away. Or try my best to.

The Christian life is a journey, and the higher we get, the more we will realise about lust, and what is not lust.

At the moment, I am just trying to not give my scruples anything to feed on by not looking.

But, you are female?

Peace and God Bless!

 

[S_V7]

If I see a good looking lady, I just look away. Or try my best to.

The Christian life is a journey, and the higher we get, the more we will realise about lust, and what is not lust.

At the moment, I am just trying to not give my scruples anything to feed on by not looking.

But, you are female?

Peace and God Bless!

yes I am a girl, and although I don’t think I’m homosexual, I tend to see potential sin in just about everything (probably true), which is why I was trying to get over that and look at the lady to try and get over my scruples. The thing that bothers me though, is that when I did decide to look away, I hesitated still thinking that I was being scrupulous (which I probably was) but in the end I was too freaked out and looked away.

 

[Magicsilence]

yes I am a girl, and although I don’t think I’m homosexual, I tend to see potential sin in just about everything (probably true), which is why I was trying to get over that and look at the lady to try and get over my scruples. The thing that bothers me though, is that when I did decide to look away, I hesitated still thinking that I was being scrupulous (which I probably was) but in the end I was too freaked out and looked away.

I know how you feel!

Sometimes, that nervous feeling starts gnawing on your mind that you are sinning and you don’t know how to respond. If you stop the action, you still feel like you have done something wrong to warrant the feeling in the first place, and if you continue the action, then when you do eventually finish it, the scruples kill you convincing you that you persisted in mortal sin.

Pray for healing and spiritual nourishment!

Peace and God Bless!

 

[Kathrin]

Hello from another scrupulous one
what do you mean by looking at her “inappropriately”? You just thought she looked like somebody you knew, right?
Hm… it does sound like scruples at work to me. Of course I can’t know what exactly you felt and thought while looking at her, but… just because I know how it is… being scrupulous - remeber, once you get yourself into that thought loop, it’s hard to see things clear. I would suggest just wait and then look back on it in a few days and then think about if you still think what you did was inappropriate or not right in any way.

HUGS,

Kathrin

p.s. I know what you mean about wanting to rant on these boards… And thanks for saying it’s ok that I added my own story in your other post.

 

[brotherjoe]

My understanding is that Pope JP II wrote that nudity in art can have genuine and holy inspirational value if it brings us to a deeper understanding of how our physical forms reflect His goodness and image. There is a right way to look at people too!