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Christians particularly used to disgust me and I thought they were all ignorant and believed in magical thinking. I never gave the thought of God or anything like that any time, not ever. I engaged in occult practices and was very promiscuous. It was a miserable existence. I truly was like the walking dead.
In the worst part of it, during my years of active drug addiction, I saw demons surrounding me one night in my motel room. I didn’t know it at the time, but it seems to me now that I was seeing straight into hell, looking at the fate of my own soul in a most disturbing way. I will never forget what I saw.
After the despair of being without God set in, I recanted my previous position and called out to God again. I said, “I need to know where you are! Show me where you are, God! If you don’t, I cannot live anymore!” I had been contemplating suicide and God answered me just in time.
I committed myself to a life of chastity and obedience. I obtained the grace I needed to make my first confession. Going over all the years of my life, all the horrible sins, I confessed them all. It took me some time to read all three pages front and back to my priest. After he absolved me of my sins, I knew that something supernatural had taken place.
Christians particularly used to disgust me and I thought they were all ignorant and believed in magical thinking. I never gave the thought of God or anything like that any time, not ever. I engaged in occult practices and was very promiscuous. It was a miserable existence. I truly was like the walking dead.
In the worst part of it, during my years of active drug addiction, I saw demons surrounding me one night in my motel room. I didn’t know it at the time, but it seems to me now that I was seeing straight into hell, looking at the fate of my own soul in a most disturbing way. I will never forget what I saw.
After the despair of being without God set in, I recanted my previous position and called out to God again. I said, “I need to know where you are! Show me where you are, God! If you don’t, I cannot live anymore!” I had been contemplating suicide and God answered me just in time.
I committed myself to a life of chastity and obedience. I obtained the grace I needed to make my first confession. Going over all the years of my life, all the horrible sins, I confessed them all. It took me some time to read all three pages front and back to my priest. After he absolved me of my sins, I knew that something supernatural had taken place.
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