Need Advice- Struggling HELP

[1Alexa]

Hello, many blessings to those reading this! I am just going to start this right off with me introducing myself a bit so those reading may have a better understanding of my situation. I am a 16-year-old girl and I am confused in my faith. I have an off and on relationship in my faith. I mean I go to church every Sunday and I pray when I can (I know an excuse) and people all the time say that I have a very good relationship with christ or that I am a good Christian as I’m an alter server but I just don’t feel it. Sometimes I feel as though I want to help the poor and dedicate my life to serving others in Christ (these feelings usually happen when I watch a movie about saints, go to church, etc…) but then I feel like in a way I’m almost distracted by the material world, and I say “who cares”.

When I was in 5th grade I remember getting excited about this new student. She had told me she had gone to a catholic school prior and the teachers were nuns; I remember excitedly telling her how I wanted to become a nun and that is what I wanted to do.

At the time I remember being so pure and excited and with no doubts on my mind about married life I knew I wanted to become a sister. But now I have so many doubts about everything, I have committed many more sins since then and I feel so ashamed with some. I have talked with my parents about this but it seems so hard to get it into words, my mother says to pray about it but I’m still struggling. I have told my best friend about this and she said because of my crazy personality she couldn’t imagine me as a sister. I am very lost, I feel terrible at times because I want that closer relationship with Christ and the Blessed Mother but now it seems I’m even confused about them.

I know I need to start praying more often (rosary and such) but with a lack of motivation or I’m not sure what it is I don’t feel up to it. There are so many distractions for me, highschool doesn’t make it any better for me either

I’m not sure what to do, I’m so unsatisfied with my life and confused (I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster taking me every which way). Sometimes I feel like a bad person, I feel like I should know better for these things.

Any advice would be extremely helpful, lots of love

 

[drac16]

I like your enthusiasm, but you don’t have to make up your mind here and now. If, in a few years, you still have the yearning to become a nun, then I would say go for it. But who knows? maybe in a few years you will meet an amazing guy and want to get married to him.

I pray that the Lord makes you into the woman that He wants you to be. May He guide you, especially in the areas you talked about. Amen.

 

[Cor_ad_Cor]

I don’t mean to sound dismissive or unkind here; in fact, I’m hoping this is a comfort. Your post makes me think that you’re a perfectly normal, typical teen.

Rule number 1: Don’t listen to others’ opinions of you as if they have some divine truth about you! Don’t completely disregard people, but we sometimes have a tendency to let others define us - they don’t (or shouldn’t). Who says a sister can’t be a “crazy personality”?! I’ve known a few!!

Rule number 2: This is the time of your life where confusion and figuring things out is basically what you do. There’s no expectation (despite people’s sometimes nagging questions) to actually have the answers yet. Give it time. Give yourself a break while you’re learning how to balance priorities with distractions and don’t expect to get it right every time. Be patient and gentle with yourself.

Pray for us; we’ll be praying for you.

 

[1Alexa]

Thanks a lot for the advice!