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Euckadip
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Part 1 : So I decide to watch a true crime video a few days ago. It started to mention sexual things and I felt a strong reminder ( probably from Guardian Angel) to click off it. But I went against it and skipped forward. It happened again I skipped it. I then decided to skip again till the end to find out what happened to the person. It then started to mention sexual things once again, so I just decide to click of since it was the end. Was this a temptation, since I have always struggled with sexual sins? Did I commit a sin, venial, or mortal? I think I decided it was a venial because I did not want to here these sexual things I just wanted to learn about a crime case. I also tried to avoid the sexual parts. Would it then be a sin to recive the Eucharist if I think that I MIGHT have commited a mortal sin?
Part 2: These types of scenerios tend to happen a lot. In the past I have strugled with porn, masturbation, and reading sexual books online. Thank God I am past those but now it seems even worse with temptations, I have sexual dreams, I get sexual thoughts when praying, every little thing in my life seems to be sexualized. I definlty think that this is a cross I have to carry since I am trying to grow in my faith. I know these thoughts are not mine but it is driving me insane and making me discusted with myself. Also like the scenerio above I am exposed to sexual things in videos and books and instead of removing myself from there I tiptoe around it. What I am trying to ask is how to deal with all this shame, guilt, and frustration? Also how to I know if I passed these temptations or if I fell in mortal or venial sin? Thank you for listening to these rant like questions.
Part 2: These types of scenerios tend to happen a lot. In the past I have strugled with porn, masturbation, and reading sexual books online. Thank God I am past those but now it seems even worse with temptations, I have sexual dreams, I get sexual thoughts when praying, every little thing in my life seems to be sexualized. I definlty think that this is a cross I have to carry since I am trying to grow in my faith. I know these thoughts are not mine but it is driving me insane and making me discusted with myself. Also like the scenerio above I am exposed to sexual things in videos and books and instead of removing myself from there I tiptoe around it. What I am trying to ask is how to deal with all this shame, guilt, and frustration? Also how to I know if I passed these temptations or if I fell in mortal or venial sin? Thank you for listening to these rant like questions.