New Member of RCIA

[batman6489]

Hello.

My name is Ashley.

I’ve just started RCIA. The first class was last Thursday. It was good, but difficult.

I’m struggling with a lot of issues, but the one I want to ask you to pray for is my battle with the pathetic worm!!

I’m talking about satan.

I’ve now decided that he isn’t just hurting me, it feels like he is abusing me.

He has taken my family, finances, and now my health, away from me. I know God is there, and is fighting for me. And I know God has proved time and time again that I’m worth it. But time after time, after God has been there, satan comes, and in a matter of seconds, the pain comes back. I try to fight it, but I’m so weak and worn.

How am I going to continue with this path/road/journey? I hear people tell me to open my Bible, but since I received it on Thursday, I haven’t even opened it. It is sitting on the floor, and I just want to throw it away, but at the same time, I do want to open it. But something is stopping me.

I’ve even told the catholic church I go to and the leader of RCIA and the current Father, that I don’t want to be a part of anything again that has do with Catholicism. But at the same time, I want to run to the Father and just let him hold me.

I’m confused and I’m not understanding why I’m having all these mixed thoughts. I know the only one who means me harm is the pathetic worm. But how do I convince myself of that?

Also I don’t want to sound like I’m pleading for only myself, I know there are worse things, and there are people in a lot of worse situations. So I’m sorry, if this is too much. If I need to take it down, I will.

I’m just asking for help, not trying to make the world revolve around me.

-Ashley

 

[RC_Eagle]

Hang in there. The devil rages most when we are on the verge of escaping him. Persevere and good things will happen. I will say a prayer for you.

 

[angeline15]

Pray!

You don’t have to pray anything formal or long or rehearsed- just make an effort to say something to God a few times each day.

Say “God, protect me” or “God, I want to be close with you, show me the way” or even just “God, I trust you” or “God, I love you”.

We all face spiritual battles where we find ourselves unable to be motivated to pray. So many distractions come up whenever I am trying to say the rosary or get to confession- yet other times of the day I have none! So what I’ve found is even if I do not have the time or courage or desire to pray something long or complex, I will try to think of God a few times each day and acknowledge Him with a short small prayer.

You are not alone- I will pray for your intentions as well, and I’ll pray to St. Michael and your guardian angel to fight for you! Remember your guardian angel is constantly fighting beside you for you to find God!

God bless!!

 

[Sunflake9]

Ask your Parrish Priest to be your spiritual advisor. Next break out your Rosary beads and ask the Blessed Mother to walk with you through this journey. Satan hates Mary and will stay away from her of you ask for her protection. He will fight to discourage you from continuing on this path. Please don’t let hime win!!!

 

[Ad_Orientem]

Dear Ashley,

Use the enemy’s own weapons against him. Offer up everything that you suffer, in union with Christ’s sacrifice, for the salvation of souls, or for the intentions of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, or for whatever intention you want to offer it up for. Then your suffering will not be wasted, and the devil will actually be hurting his own cause.

Remember Our Lord in the Garden, “Father, if thou wilt, remove this chalice from me: but yet not my will, but thine be done.”