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Flopfoot
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I have this problem (yes, another one). I often plan to try and do good things - thinking about situations I’ll be in in future, what God might want me to do or say there, etc. I also look back on things I’ve done a lot and think about what I should have done, what God would have wanted me to do. However, when I’m actually ‘doing’ things, it’s like my mind goes blank or something - Later, when I look back at that time (a time when I had a chance to do what God wanted), I can’t remember exactly what thoughts I had at the time but obviously I wasn’t all too aware of what I was doing because I didn’t think about the things I’d thought about earlier and what God wanted me to do, and hence didn’t really do it. I hope I’m making sense here. I don’t mean that I’m always committing serious sins and things like that, it’s more that I don’t do positive things when I have a chance to, and also sometimes that I say thing I later regret. Later I look back and think “Why didn’t I do that / say that / why Did I say that? Wasn’t I thinking at the time?” This is especially (pretty much always) when I’m with other people. The planning and reminicisng, when I think about what I should do or should have done, is when I’m by myself, not talking to anyone. I’m not sure exactly what it is. Maybe if life was more like a game of chess (ie, I have time to think about my ‘moves’ before I make them) then I might be alright at it. But maybe since life isn’t like that, I get caught up in the real-time, speed of everything moving around me and I don’t have the time to plan out what I should do. Sometimes I even think that the Holy Spirit is with me to help me plan and aspire to do good, but then when the time comes around for doing it He just leaves me to do it alone. I’ve got no idea why this would happen though. Anyone know whats the matter with me and how I can fix it?