no faith

[handmaidenByzC]

my faith is gone. i used to go to daily mass, eucharistic adoration, rosary, devotions. now i do not believe in god or christ as a god (maybe a historical person accounting for the religions of today). i am not angry, i feel well and at peace. i have no faith. i cannot have the eucharist because of my grave sin against the first commandment. i have prayed to a “false” god i do not believe in just to see if that would help. now i do not pray because it is a mockery to pray to a false god.
can you help

 

[mab23]

*O my Jesus
Forgive us ours sins,
save us from the fires of Hell
lead all souls to Heaven
especially those most in need of thy mercy.
AMEN
*

 

[handmaidenByzC]

*O my Jesus
Forgive us ours sins,
save us from the fires of Hell
lead all souls to Heaven
especially those most in need of thy mercy.
AMEN
*

you are kind and charitable. I thank you very, very much
but it does not help

be well, may life bring you all you desire, peace and happiness

 

[JRKH]

my faith is gone. i used to go to daily mass, eucharistic adoration, rosary, devotions. now i do not believe in god or christ as a god (maybe a historical person accounting for the religions of today). i am not angry, i feel well and at peace. i have no faith. i cannot have the eucharist because of my grave sin against the first commandment. i have prayed to a “false” god i do not believe in just to see if that would help. now i do not pray because it is a mockery to pray to a false god.
can you help

you are kind and charitable. I thank you very, very much
but it does not help

be well, may life bring you all you desire, peace and happiness

If you are looking for advice this might not be the best forum to post this in. Perhaps it would be better in spirituality than in prayer intentions.
I have aksed the moderator to have a look and possibly move it. Hope you don’t mind.

That said…and trying to help here if I can…I’m a little confused as to what you are seek help on.
You say you do not believe and are at peace. If that is the case, then why do you seek help? Do you wish to believe again? If so then it appears that you are NOT presently at peace.
Do you wish to be able to receive the Eucharist again? If you are at peace not believing, then why?
See my confusion?

I’d love to try to help…but I’m not sure where to start…

What has led you to not believe??
Or is it not so much that you "don’t believe’ but that you doubt?

Peace
James

 

[englishredrose]

Hi there.
That happend to me this year. The priest of my church been helping me anyway which helped me to ring him and get help because I wasn’t as at peace as you say you are. Honestly, he has saved my faith. I have re-evaluated God a little bit and changed some things or not properly changed because I wasn’t doing some things quite as good as all that any way but no longer feel guilty for that and he shown me an equally valid way of prayer and I keep asking him for reassurance and he keeps agreeing - thankfully and understands.
SInce I am Church of England in may be wrong of me to say too much but what I will say is to ring your priest and talk to him about it. He really has and is helping me be with God etc an dover the last two month I have struggles yes but been with God far more than I have in the last 25 years.

 

[244Rocket]

Praying for you.

 

[handmaidenByzC]

thank you all so kindly
Jam es you are right I should not bother anyone
I did try my priest, is was my director…the one to approve my entry to religious life
I am a doctor but was leaving that work to do a different kind of gods work
My priest banned me from the church
I upset a “family like person” she cleans the rectory and has minor medical issues.
I have 1200 text messages, conference calls with the priest and her, over like getting a generic drug and feeling cheated, or needing a repeat mammogram in 6 months. my sister has stage 3C breast cancer, because of this I get 6 month checks for life. I arranged a surgeon specialist to do a benign surgery.

well she told father after using me for months she does not trust me because i am not working and have no white coat (I am ivy league educated and trained…not that that makes me anything great, but I did have good education and experience).

I snapped and told her off
she told father I scared

he will not let me in church, I never threatened just said, “oh I do drugs and malpractice so cannot practice” I was sarcastic

I apologized 3 times
she never apologized or thanked all my workk

father, told me I deserved no apology,
took this as human and yelled in anger

he is right, we deserve nothing…god if he existed, would give this to us, if he wanted

I am peaceful, giving and loving
I am not perfect and let my anger get the better of me

I knelt before father, and called him your reverence…he said that was weird (we do weird stuff in the east, like in confession after standing, kneel and kiss the right hand…he is a convert)

well it is all over
I cannot even stand a sacramental
I gave them all away, even gold crosses…he said that was weird too

i give up

YOU ARE ALL RIGHT, I DESERVE NO PLACE HERE. PLEASE DO NOT TRANSFER THE THREAD OR RESPOND…I SIGN OFF
I SANG SOME HAIL MARYS BUT SHE NEVER ANSWERED

I DO NOT WANT ANY “CHRIST IS WITH YOU THE MOST IN HARD TIMES” STUFF.
I DO NOT BELIEVE ANY MORE

IT IS FINISHED

THANK YOU ALL, MANY HAPPY HEALTHY YEARS, FORGIVE MY BOTHER, FORGIVE ME

 

[SaintPatrick333]

thank you all so kindly
Jam es you are right I should not bother anyone
I did try my priest, is was my director…the one to approve my entry to religious life
I am a doctor but was leaving that work to do a different kind of gods work
My priest banned me from the church
I upset a “family like person” she cleans the rectory and has minor medical issues.
I have 1200 text messages, conference calls with the priest and her, over like getting a generic drug and feeling cheated, or needing a repeat mammogram in 6 months. my sister has stage 3C breast cancer, because of this I get 6 month checks for life. I arranged a surgeon specialist to do a benign surgery.

well she told father after using me for months she does not trust me because i am not working and have no white coat (I am ivy league educated and trained…not that that makes me anything great, but I did have good education and experience).

I snapped and told her off
she told father I scared

he will not let me in church, I never threatened just said, “oh I do drugs and malpractice so cannot practice” I was sarcastic

I apologized 3 times
she never apologized or thanked all my workk

father, told me I deserved no apology,
took this as human and yelled in anger

he is right, we deserve nothing…god if he existed, would give this to us, if he wanted

I am peaceful, giving and loving
I am not perfect and let my anger get the better of me

I knelt before father, and called him your reverence…he said that was weird (we do weird stuff in the east, like in confession after standing, kneel and kiss the right hand…he is a convert)

well it is all over
I cannot even stand a sacramental
I gave them all away, even gold crosses…he said that was weird too

i give up

YOU ARE ALL RIGHT, I DESERVE NO PLACE HERE. PLEASE DO NOT TRANSFER THE THREAD OR RESPOND…I SIGN OFF
I SANG SOME HAIL MARYS BUT SHE NEVER ANSWERED

I DO NOT WANT ANY “CHRIST IS WITH YOU THE MOST IN HARD TIMES” STUFF.
I DO NOT BELIEVE ANY MORE

IT IS FINISHED

THANK YOU ALL, MANY HAPPY HEALTHY YEARS, FORGIVE MY BOTHER, FORGIVE ME

Maybe you would be off in a better parish or a better rite? I’m assuming there’s more to the story than just what is posted but you shouldn’t let the actions of a man, even a Priest, separate you from God. Remember, you go to Mass and to confession, etc for Christ. Not for the Priest. Not for the ungrateful lady you were helping. I pray through your wandering that you understand this and find your way back. It’s a lonely dark world out there when we reject Christ. That sense of peace and security is not built on anything solid and will crumble under the slightest weight of adversity. I will pray for you my friend.

 

[JRKH]

handmaidenByzC,

Forgive me if I made you feel that you should not be here…I am sorry.

I was simply confused and hoped to get more information. It sounds as though you have some very serious problems and perhaps need to speak to a second or third priest about these matters…

God forgive me if I have contributed to the loss of this soul…

Peace
James

 

[ready]

Mother Mary, I recommed your daughter HandmaidenByzC to you. May she become a member of the holy Catholic Church and heal from her past injuries. May she give her assent to faith and let understanding follow. May she believe that Jesus died for her in His great love for her and not let herself lose the 2 most precious things she has - her soul and her faith. Mother Mary, please help your daughter and ease her pain and suffering. Lead her to your Son and to His holy Catholic Church. Amen.

 

[Trishie]

Lord our sister has deep hurt. Please console and heal her.
Please give the priest and the parish worker the charity and forgiveness that is required by You.
In failing in charity and forgiveness they have caused deeper wound to our sister’s life.
Please lead her to gentle, wholesome healing.

 

[RileyG]

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thine intercession was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence,

I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my mother; to thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me.

Amen.

 

[Trishie]

I think there was a misunderstanding. James didn’t mean you to go to another forum *outside *CAF. We members who have been here for a long time sometimes forget that newer members aren’t familiar with our jargon.

When James mentioned about going to another forum he would have meant you might find some help in the Spirituality Forum so that people could talk with you more and give you support.

You are very welcome here. :grouphug: