Not good enough

[buckr02]

I’m just looking for some guidance and a chance to rant a bit. I posted this in the vocations forum, but I thought maybe it would be better suited here. So here it goes…

I have a major character flaw. I don’t feel good enough for anyone or any vocation except single life. I’ve often felt like I might be called to the priesthood but have usually felt more pulled to marriage, but I don’t feel like I’m worthy of priesthood and I don’t feel like I’m worthy enough to ask for any woman to marry me.

This kind of started because I have one friend, a girl, who I’ve felt for a long time like I would like to marry, but I definitely don’t think I’m ever going to be good enough for her and even if I was, I don’t think she’d ever feel that way about me. This is kind of my other big flaw - that I don’t think people like me. With this girl and my other friends, I don’t feel like they really like me, but just kind of put up with me. And then, with this girl especially, I sometimes get to a point where I think she actually does likes me, but then a few days later I feel like I did something wrong to make her find me annoying again. I always feel like I’m doing something wrong. I don’t know how to deal with this. I guess I just need to rant a little. If anyone has any words of advice I’d greatly appreciate it and if you could just say a prayer for me, it would mean a lot.

 

[puzzleannie]

no human is worthy of the priesthood, and no man is worthy of the love of a good woman and the joy of fatherhood, and no woman is worthy of a loving husband and of motherhood. These are free gifts of the Creator to those whom he calls to these vocations. So give over the false humility of considering your worthiness, and spend the energy and effort in discerning the path to which God is calling you. When you answer he will make you worthy, as he alone can, and will give you the charisms for those vocations as part of the sacramental graces through which you are make worthy.