I understand the desire to pay for one’s sins, and to experience a little of purgatory in penalty.
I think it’s a good desire.
In a sense, we live in purgatory already, because we live separated from God, and if we had but eyes to see it, we would be in the agony they are there. I like to think of this as motivation.
Purgatory is not just cleansing of the heart, it is payment of justice for sins committed. It is an error to think of it without regard to justice.
But it is also true that indulgences justly pay the penalty. And the penalty paid, we are enabled to serve God the better in this life and better merit. So one must gain what one can, however humiliating it is to not pay more of what one should. This too is a cross to bear. I hate to say it.
That said, I doubt anyone does sufficient penance regardless of indulgences as a norm in these times. One has to look at the penance given for the majority of Catholic history to see how much is due each sin… If I open for example, St. Charles Borromeo, a very recent saint relatively, his penances are not far different from the early Church’s, showing the weight of penance doesn’t change, priests merely may not require it and let people make it up themselves in purgatory.
The penances include years of penance for children talking back and spiting their parents. Years.
And the habitual sins throughout the day… the righteous man it is said, falls seven times…
So… take what indulgences you may… you still have to do penance… without penance one does not save one’s soul. You probably cannot gain enough indulgences. And too, they can be given to the holy souls and you can entrust that to God and Our Lady, as to the distribution whether to you or them.
Sackcloth and ashes, hair shirts, wooden boards for beds, the discipline, or the equivalent. .
All good. Done in the proper spirit.
‘A person may say I am not much concerned how long I stay in purgatory, provided I may come to eternal life. Let no one reason thus. Purgatory fire will be more dreadful than whatever torments can be seen, imagined, or endured in this world. He who is afraid now to put his finger into the fire, does he not fear lest he be then all buried in torments for a long time?’
St. Caesarius of Arles