Again God does not tolerate sin, yet he demands perfection. Some sins are very difficult to fully conquer. There is no excuse for it. Part of me just wants to drop out of the whole Christian thing, I will never be perfect enough. I know God made us all very differently. I am more the sensitive, emotional, touchy side. It is very hard for things NOT TO BOTHER ME. I am not as independent as other people. If I were to try to do something by myself I would struggle for hours. I ALWAYS NEED HELP FROM OTHERS & I HATE ASKING. When will I ever grow up?
Where do you get the idea that each one of us is perfect or that God demands perfection?
God would like us to always be striving, yes. But if we were pure and still had free will, we’d be angels. Another species entirely.
You’re making yourself ill with these notions that you have to be perfect 24-7. No one is, and if they tell you they are they’re deluding themselves and you as well.
I recommend you read the lives of the saints. Many of them were very flawed. Their saintliness came from how they
responded to their failings.
THIS is what God is looking for. Do we give up? Or do we try to do well, to love others, and to understand that we are His children: loved and lovely.
God is crazy in love with you. Time to accept that, and do the best you can.
When you fall, go to confession, reconcile with him and strive to do better.
Rinse, repeat.
Pray for peace in your heart, pure intent, and a closeness to the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet and go to Adoration. Little by little, you will come to a place of peace in your own heart and you will cease to look inward. You will begin to see those who need your love, your encouragement, and your helping hands.
I’ll pray for you!
Peace, dear one.
