I’m still a wannabe Catholic, so I do still get lost now and then in the missal or service book. Plus I have ADD and get easily distracted, especially by noises, and my mind wanders despite my best intentions. Also, my hearing isn’t that great, and I’ll think the priests are either speaking unclearly or the mike is not functioning right.
But I’m getting off the point.I have a little pocket-sized prayer book from the early 20th century, called “St. Swithun’s Prayer Book.” I’ve not learned all the Catholic prayers and creeds yet. SOME are in this book, but not all. There is something you can read if you aren’t taking the Eucharist, something called “Spiritual Communion,” which I’d never heard of before. But I either forget about it, or try to start and the Priest starts into something or a hymn is sung. Or I’ll try to get to the Church early to pray some of the morning prayers in the book, and as soon as I start, music comes up or the service starts or something —I never seem to get to finish that set of “Spiritual Communion” prayers or indeed most any of the other sets of prayers in the book.
So, in addition to more or less free-form prayers, stuck in wherever I can find room, when in doubt, I either say “Hail Marys” or just pray “Lord forgive me, a sinner,” over and over.
I don’t know if anyone else is like this, but when I’m away from Church, I find my prayers are often less formal and almost conversational in tone, while still staying reverent. Am I alone in that? Or is that a holdover from my Protestant background?