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mdbaker46
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Hello everyone this is only my second post but i come here and read once in a while.
I have been depressed for years now but especially recently. During my depression many times i have considered suicide. But it crushed my heart that i would go to hell.
I have a hard time with this if you commit suicide you go to hell thing. It makes me want to cry. Especially because there are so many who commit suicide now. I know God himself sends no one to hell but one does with the sins one commits. But why is suicide a sin? People who commit suicide are trying to stop the pain. Would God really allow someone who wants to stop the suffering to go to hell?
Maybe if they had other sins yes but lets say its someone who has no sins and is recently confessed. They would still go to hell. This really makes me want to cry.
The time i considered suicide i wanted to rest and just go to God already. But that would never happen. I think God would not do that. I really think that God can understand that some people cant take it anymore. I dont think he would send them to hell.
Recently some people from the baptist church came to my house and told me that no one can forgive but God. And that accepting Jesus is all there is. I have considered becoming a baptist because i feel it is the right way.
I know there is a chance non catholics can reach salvations if they dont know the catholic teaching and feel that their religion is the right way to get to God. Well i sort of feel this is the right way. And i feel God is calling me through this religion because i have been having so many thoughts. But i DO know the catholic teachings. But i just feel that this other religion might be the right way.
I really feel that just feeling sorry and asking for Gods forgiveness is the right way. Why is it necessary to tell a priest? Does it mean that non catholics who ask God for forgiveness are never forgiven even though they can be really sorry?
I dont know im so confused. Ive cried alot already. I dont know what to do. And knowing about so many people who commit suicide. And to think they are all burning in hell for EVER AND EVER AND EVER just because they were in pain. I dont know what to think anymore.
I love God. And i know that i mess up often and i feel so sorry right now that i want to cry. And i know God knows that. So why cant he just forgive me himself? I really think he can.
Plus EVERYONE sins. What happens if even though you might be a good catholic you get killed on your way to confession? You go to hell! I dont think God would allow that.
I also dont know why God would allow anyone to burn for eternity. I dont think that even the worst of people would deserve that. Maybe a certain amount of time. But FOREVER?
Like i said i really love God and i dont doubt him. What i doubt is the interpretations we might have of him. I doubt that maybe man has made mistakes in understanding his word.
Please help me i dont know what to do.![]()