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randirhoades
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I was hit hard with a devastation that has me moving around in a zombie like state. I could barely say my prayers this morning. And more than anything I truly feel I want to be with God even more. Yet, don’t worry. Won’t do anything to jeopardize going to heaven.
My family (Mom, little brother) who I’ve forgiven already and still love told me something so vile, depraved, disgusting, vulgar and debauch. I don’t know what to do. I’m asking for prayer to get through this. I’ve been through so much that would knock ten people down says my counselor. Who I will be going to see this week. Praise God.
Those two family members said I had a fixation on my Father in the worst way you can imagine, obsession in the worst way you can imagine and implied that my Father and I had something going on that families aren’t suppose to do together.
When I heard this I nearly fainted, got severely sick to my stomach and shook so bad, I had to hang on to a counter. I was so excruciatingly shocked I became nauseous. When I think of going to my Mom’s house now, I want to throw up. And I will never go again. Plus, my Father has never, ever, ever touched any of us kids. We know that as a fact. And know that he would cry over this if he knew. I know he would. He loves my little brother and would be shocked too. Daddy is the most wonderful Father. But alas has dementia and lives with a woman who won’t let his heirs see him. I miss him so much. Anyway, my Daddy has always been good to us and is not that kind of person. He was raised in a home that doing something like that was taboo and his parents loved him. And has said himself when he wasn’t sick and heard other people do it as being, “sick and what is wrong with those people”!
Please pray for me and for my Mother and Brother know better but they don’t care if they hurt me. I’ve been a scapegoat for them since I was little and been blamed for things I didn’t do. I know they never truly loved me nor liked me in a healthy way. I felt that my Mother didn’t love me since I was little and always wondered what I did to deserve her hatred. I still do. My Counselor said it was nothing I did.
My Mother said she even wished she never had children. My Aunt says she’s saying it at their family gatherings. Anyway, my Mother and brother are very mental and I’m going to stay as far away as possible. I will love them from afar. They destroy people and have no remorse.
Why, why, why me Lord?
I’m hanging on to Jesus and please know I will Never lose faith. Times like these are when we Need our Holy Father. Plus, I know Jesus is carrying me. If only He would come down from Heaven, knock on my door and I kneel before Him. Then throw my arms around Him if permitted, and profess my deep love for Him. Mostly cry my heart out on His shoulders. I’ve wished that so many times I can’t count. And want it desperately.
Still, I know Jesus is standing near me.
Please pray for me, love ya’ll, it’s hard to type or focus.
I’ll pray for you, never will stop praying for you too.
THE MIRACLE PRAYER
Lord Jesus, I come before Thee, just as I am, I am sorry for my sins, I repent of my sins, please forgive me. In Thy Name, I forgive all others for what they have done against me. I renounce satan, the evil spirits and all their works. I give Thee my entire self, Lord Jesus, I accept Thee as my Lord God and Savior. Heal me, change me, strengthen me in body, soul, and spirit.
Come Lord Jesus, cover me with Thy Precious Blood, and fill me with Thy Holy Spirit, I love Thee Lord Jesus, I praise Thee Lord Jesus, I thank Thee Jesus, I shall follow Thee every day of my life. Amen.
Mary, My Mother, Queen of Peace, St. Peregrine, the cancer saint, all the Angels and Saints, please help me. Amen.
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My family (Mom, little brother) who I’ve forgiven already and still love told me something so vile, depraved, disgusting, vulgar and debauch. I don’t know what to do. I’m asking for prayer to get through this. I’ve been through so much that would knock ten people down says my counselor. Who I will be going to see this week. Praise God.
Those two family members said I had a fixation on my Father in the worst way you can imagine, obsession in the worst way you can imagine and implied that my Father and I had something going on that families aren’t suppose to do together.
When I heard this I nearly fainted, got severely sick to my stomach and shook so bad, I had to hang on to a counter. I was so excruciatingly shocked I became nauseous. When I think of going to my Mom’s house now, I want to throw up. And I will never go again. Plus, my Father has never, ever, ever touched any of us kids. We know that as a fact. And know that he would cry over this if he knew. I know he would. He loves my little brother and would be shocked too. Daddy is the most wonderful Father. But alas has dementia and lives with a woman who won’t let his heirs see him. I miss him so much. Anyway, my Daddy has always been good to us and is not that kind of person. He was raised in a home that doing something like that was taboo and his parents loved him. And has said himself when he wasn’t sick and heard other people do it as being, “sick and what is wrong with those people”!
Please pray for me and for my Mother and Brother know better but they don’t care if they hurt me. I’ve been a scapegoat for them since I was little and been blamed for things I didn’t do. I know they never truly loved me nor liked me in a healthy way. I felt that my Mother didn’t love me since I was little and always wondered what I did to deserve her hatred. I still do. My Counselor said it was nothing I did.
My Mother said she even wished she never had children. My Aunt says she’s saying it at their family gatherings. Anyway, my Mother and brother are very mental and I’m going to stay as far away as possible. I will love them from afar. They destroy people and have no remorse.
Why, why, why me Lord?
I’m hanging on to Jesus and please know I will Never lose faith. Times like these are when we Need our Holy Father. Plus, I know Jesus is carrying me. If only He would come down from Heaven, knock on my door and I kneel before Him. Then throw my arms around Him if permitted, and profess my deep love for Him. Mostly cry my heart out on His shoulders. I’ve wished that so many times I can’t count. And want it desperately.
Still, I know Jesus is standing near me.
Please pray for me, love ya’ll, it’s hard to type or focus.
I’ll pray for you, never will stop praying for you too.
THE MIRACLE PRAYER
Lord Jesus, I come before Thee, just as I am, I am sorry for my sins, I repent of my sins, please forgive me. In Thy Name, I forgive all others for what they have done against me. I renounce satan, the evil spirits and all their works. I give Thee my entire self, Lord Jesus, I accept Thee as my Lord God and Savior. Heal me, change me, strengthen me in body, soul, and spirit.
Come Lord Jesus, cover me with Thy Precious Blood, and fill me with Thy Holy Spirit, I love Thee Lord Jesus, I praise Thee Lord Jesus, I thank Thee Jesus, I shall follow Thee every day of my life. Amen.
Mary, My Mother, Queen of Peace, St. Peregrine, the cancer saint, all the Angels and Saints, please help me. Amen.
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