Please Pray for me...

[PePPaR]

I was just sitting in my room today. And I burst out crying. It’s even hard for me to stop myself from crying at this moment. I can’t believe I’ve reached such a point in my life. We often express our feelings to people in our lives. But there’s no one in my life I even feel comfortable talking to about how I feel. I feel so sad when writing this, but I need to get these things off my chest.

It suddenly hit me today that I am infact depressed. At one stafe I could never understand how people can even become depressed… Thankfully, I’m not extremely depressed. I can deal well with emotions, and usually I am quite happy as I’m busy most of the time. But there’s just times in the day when I break down.

I just feel as if my life is going nowhere. I’ve had so many great friends. But all of them have gone different directions, I’ve lost contact with them, and others are pursuing their own goals and have started a new life elsewhere. For the last 4 years I’ve spent most of my time on the computer playing online games. I was in a social environment, but a internet social environment with people I never met. I never really saw friends that often in real life whilst I was addicted to gaming. And now when I have quit games I want to be social in real life again…but can’t really do that because I have no close friends in my life.

I really want to be social guy that I used to be. The confident person I was back in the day, the person that was friendly and liked by everyone. Now I’m just “that guy”. I have friends but they aren’t really close, I hardly ever see them. I just miss having close friends, and also close companions.

To add to my problems I’m deeply infatuated with someone. I can’t ever get them off my mind. And its tearing me apart because its someone I can never be with… I try not to think about them but I just can’t help it. We all know how infatuation takes us over and how its almost impossible to stop it. It’s human nature…I know I can’t get over this person, but I ask for some help that I can control my emotions, and that I don’t become more depressed because I can’t be with this person.

Thankfully I do have somewhat of a direction in my life. I’m in school and working towards going to college next year. But truthfully I’m not going for a degree, I’m not going for future job opportunities, and I’m not going primarily to learn. I’m going so I can make friends again - close friends. For a long time I was shy as anything, so self-consious and always thought about what people thought about me. Never made a move towards getting to know someone. But now those inhibitions have wavered off. I’m far more confident but need a new environment in life. So I’m working towards this goal of starting a new life in a new environment with new people. But I need help so I can meet the right people, the people I will feel close to and can develop true lasting friendships like I once had…

I also feel as if I have so much love to give. But I have no one to share it to. I’m not close to anyone in my life…not even my parents. I wish I could just have somebody I could talk to like this…but I don’t. I generally feel alone. And it’s the worst feeling ever. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I just feel as if everything I have to offer to others is being wasted.

I doubt anyone would read all this but I just needed to get this off my chest. I couldn’t keep these feelings inside of me anymore. It feels much better to express them.

So I ask for your prayers, that I find some true friends in my life who are very close, that I pursue with my current endeavours and that I eventually find something in my life that makes it fulfilling. And I also ask for help that I can find more meaning as to what my life means, and what I am here to do, and that I can share my love with others, and that others can share their love with me…

Thank you.

 

[Trishie]

Seeing that you’re distressed I just want you to know I’ve seen your post and will read what you’re written and start praying for you immediately.
A warm hug

 

[bre]

Our Father, which art in Heaven
Hollowed be thy name
The kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven

Give us this day, our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us

Lead us not into temptaiton
But deliver us from evil

Amen

 

[StarMaiden]

I am just slowly emerging from a long period of depression so I have some idea of what you are going through. I will hold you in my thoughts and prayers my friend

 

[Trishie]

Jesus, with hope and trust I ask You to fill PePPar’s life with holy purpose and much happiness. Thank You for the graces You have given. Please flood Your love and blessings, and true and trusted friends, into PePPar’s life.

 

[kennewickmike]

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy;
our life, our sweetness and our hope. To
thee do we cry, poor banished children of
Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs,
mourning and weeping in this vale of tears.
Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine
eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our
exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy
womb, Jesus, O clement, O loving, O sweet
Virgin Mary. Pray for us, O holy Mother of
God that we may be made worthy of the
promises of Christ. Amen.

 

[catherine_m]

Hi!
I’ve read all your post and I’ll certainly start praying for you now. Stay strong. Trust in the Lord and our Blessed Mother and you will find many good friends and have a happy life.

Hail Mary, full of grace the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus. Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

 

[Tarek_Chidiac]

Praying hard for you … take care and stay strong

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners,
now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Holy Michael, the Archangel, defend us in battle.
Be our safeguard against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; and do you, O Prince of the heavenly host,
by the power of God cast into hell satan and all the evil spirits
who wander through the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen

May the angels watch over and protect your parents, may they have prosperity and be in good health.

 

[St_Gabriel]

Hail Mary,
full of grace,
the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the Fruit Of Thy Womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen