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HabemusFrancis
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I apologize if this is in the wrong section, and would be happy to have it moved.
First of , Merry Christmas one and all!
As you all know, I have sort of experienced a rebirth of my Catholocism for the past 3 months. I have felt much greater clarity and inner peace for having done so, but at same time have had rather odd thoughts and feelings which haven’t surfaced before.
At same time I got more into Catholocism, I also aquired an interest in the occult ( mostly tarot and other divination methods/ animal spirit cards etc.) I read about the subjects out of curisoisty, and felt sort of a pull or interest to buy them.
Though I knew they were wrong, I sort of justified myself entertaining the idea of buying them by saying “Oh, the Church teaches a lot of things… they might be wrong on this…” or “it can’t be that bad can it?” I always stopped from buying them though, and the more I prayed or matured in my faith the less the desire became, and now it is gone.
I also aquired sort of an interest in exorcism, a long hushed up and not talked about reality of the Church. What I learned intrigued and enlightened, but also frightened and depressed me. I learned that many such victims of demons become so by being involved in occult (especially ouija board, which I truly never would touch!!!) I think perhaps from here on in it is a subject that is best not to research or think about?
Funny enough, whenever I would puruse the Wicca/new age section in a book store (after my faith matured) I would almost get an allergic reaction. Nothing really physical, just a shortness of breath/ mental fogginess that would recede within a minute of leaving the section.
Lately… I’ve been reading about various marian apparitions (which no one is required to believe.) I read them thinking they’d be enlightening ( and some were) but a few just felt… strange. “Our Lady of Good Success” was one, I hate to say.
I basically took issue with the fact that Mary ( in this apparition) spoke of the need for penance or else the world would be punished greatly by her son. The whole idea of it sort of upset me, and I felt sort of a strange anger and contempt for Jesus that lasted maybe all of 3 minutes. I felt terrible after the thoughts left. I never felt that way before and wonder if maybe it was an unnaproved vision and one I should be wary of?
To top it all off, I believe I met a witch cashier today: a female cashier with a pentacle around her neck
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I don’t find any of this too alarming really. I just find it interesting that this occult interest ( unacted upon) would coincide with my renewed devotion to the Church.
I know I might sound kind of strange telling this, and maybe even reading/thinking about these topics are a bit out there, but I would appreciate some insight/advice.
Thank you all so much
First of , Merry Christmas one and all!
As you all know, I have sort of experienced a rebirth of my Catholocism for the past 3 months. I have felt much greater clarity and inner peace for having done so, but at same time have had rather odd thoughts and feelings which haven’t surfaced before.
At same time I got more into Catholocism, I also aquired an interest in the occult ( mostly tarot and other divination methods/ animal spirit cards etc.) I read about the subjects out of curisoisty, and felt sort of a pull or interest to buy them.
Though I knew they were wrong, I sort of justified myself entertaining the idea of buying them by saying “Oh, the Church teaches a lot of things… they might be wrong on this…” or “it can’t be that bad can it?” I always stopped from buying them though, and the more I prayed or matured in my faith the less the desire became, and now it is gone.
I also aquired sort of an interest in exorcism, a long hushed up and not talked about reality of the Church. What I learned intrigued and enlightened, but also frightened and depressed me. I learned that many such victims of demons become so by being involved in occult (especially ouija board, which I truly never would touch!!!) I think perhaps from here on in it is a subject that is best not to research or think about?
Funny enough, whenever I would puruse the Wicca/new age section in a book store (after my faith matured) I would almost get an allergic reaction. Nothing really physical, just a shortness of breath/ mental fogginess that would recede within a minute of leaving the section.
Lately… I’ve been reading about various marian apparitions (which no one is required to believe.) I read them thinking they’d be enlightening ( and some were) but a few just felt… strange. “Our Lady of Good Success” was one, I hate to say.
I basically took issue with the fact that Mary ( in this apparition) spoke of the need for penance or else the world would be punished greatly by her son. The whole idea of it sort of upset me, and I felt sort of a strange anger and contempt for Jesus that lasted maybe all of 3 minutes. I felt terrible after the thoughts left. I never felt that way before and wonder if maybe it was an unnaproved vision and one I should be wary of?
To top it all off, I believe I met a witch cashier today: a female cashier with a pentacle around her neck
I don’t find any of this too alarming really. I just find it interesting that this occult interest ( unacted upon) would coincide with my renewed devotion to the Church.
I know I might sound kind of strange telling this, and maybe even reading/thinking about these topics are a bit out there, but I would appreciate some insight/advice.
Thank you all so much