What a tender age to question, think about and ponder life and how you fit into it. I know the “special” love that is felt from a parents point of view towards a child going through so many challenges - that he has not deserved, or even looked for. It is simply laid upon him with the only bennifit being that God believes that very much in his ability to deal with this. Great things will come of the heart that endures much, as he can truly aspire to understand the Lords pain and suffering to some degree. I had a terminally ill child that died a year and a half ago just nearing his 19th birthday. It was so hard to let go of him…but that is my quest, not yours. I watched in amazment at what my son accepted as Gods plan, and he was more settled spiritually than so many adults i know now.
I pray that the love of God hold him tight, and he hold it. I pray for my son to seek some way to help young children suffering, as he truly understood it, and it’s role. I pray that you live life with that light, and for our Lord to hold you tight. Kiss them at night, as they can not say yuck then! Watch over them and pray while they sleep, as i have never been as close to the Lord, as the moments i prayed about my son to the lord as he slept. It draws a humbleness, a debth, and an inner truth. You will probably quiver and cry, but it is so clensing!!! The sheer awe and tingles are a gift of the Lords presence…go with it…you will get stronger, cry out so many truths, and therefore be stronger for your son.
That is the gift i pray for you, to be strong for him, as he needs your humbled strength and understanding.
Love and prayers out to you…God Bless!
Allana