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Faithfullyyours
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I had shut down emotionally to my partner if that’s what he can be called who lives with me . Firstly I know I have had a bout of bad health for a few years I ask for prayers to be in control of this and to be mentally and physically stronger to deal with the problems that arise in my life . His father took ill and he went to stay with him overnight as we had a mouse problem . I felt abandoned and let down . He started to come and go as he pleased and I became stronger and happier when he wasn’t there . I realised his presence in my home caused me anxiety and his inability to show me love consideration respect or support even when I was ill was my turning point . I wanted him to leave and he knew this but would not communicate with me . But clung on to my home which he claims is half his our daughter which he never did anything for but now seems to want to show everyone what a great father he is when he never helped or supported us financially or respected me as a mother . He caught me in a trap I could not get out off .ignoring me and living seperate lives but expecting a dinner on the table and a clean house . He blamed me for the mouse as I tend to clutter but have always kept a clean home . This has been going on for months now . He stays in his mothers . He comes in and out when he likes and sits in s seperate room from us . I have stopped cooking or doing anything for him . My daughter is confused and just wants me to be happy . I have seperate from him emotionally as I know he may have contributed to my ill health . I realise I have always been doing things on my own and can continue to do so . I am no more lonely now as whenhe is here and I ambeing ignored . He has family here and friends to share things with . I have no one . I ask for prayers for good support and that I can get the right people to speak to for my daughter and I . My god is my strength . Please pray for me as he is playing with my emotions . He won’t go and he bought me a Christmas present which I did not want . He stayed all of Christmas Day to the point I had to give him dinner as I did not want an argument and spoil my daughters day . I really feel he is waiting on me to be my usual loving and giving self because it is the Christmas season . I have stood my ground for months now but I need strength and he is confusing me . I know he will never be the partner I deserve or father to my daughter . Am I being selfish ?
