I see

thanks for the replies. I agree that we
do get graces in return.
Maybe it helps some people to remember this, as an encouragement.
I guess my response came from the fact that it doesn’t help me personally, probably cause i’m a naturally very selfish person. So it just presents a temptation. (thats’ why what St Bernadette said really spoke to me)
If you’re stronger than I am in this, awesome,

and - God bless!
I think it’s still good to remember, even if we don’t get anything in return, we should still do it.
and John Russell, I do see what you mean. It’s wonderful when people value graces. Most of the world does not

and of course I’m very thankful for all the graces God has given me. I don’t know why He did to be honest lol. Maybe it was because of my efforts and prayers, but really my efforts are so pitiful that more probably it was because of the prayers of the Blessed Virgin.
Peace~