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mymamamary
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I’ve always known about the Jesus Prayer, but it wasn’t until about 5 months ago that I decided to take it seriously. I love Eastern Catholic/Orthodox theology and spirituality by the way. One blockage to praying it fervently however is the fact that according to the Spiritual Fathers who wrote on the prayer in the Philokalia, one must not “imagine Jesus” while praying it, and one must empty oneself so that one can be filled with the Holy Spirit, and I also know they warn against it because of equating consolation with conversion, which, having had the grace of cultivating an interior life of sorts and being in continual dialogue with a spiritual director, I know that consolation is just that, a feeling that one is to give thanks to God for, but not being so hung up on it or actively trying to seek out said consolation. Feelings are for the large part, secondary in the spiritual life. But since I have quite a strong imagination and because I pray the Rosary and do a Lectio of sorts on the mysteries that I’m praying, I find it terribly hard not to at least picture the face of Jesus as Pantokrator in my mind, which also helps keep me from being distracted. For my experienced Eastern brothers and sisters out there, Catholic or Orthodox, is it wrong to keep praying the Jesus prayer in this way, even though I find this way to be the best for me? My mind loves “seeing” and “imagining”, so naturally when I pray the Jesus Prayer, I find it much less distracting if I can picture Jesus in front of me, and me offering Him those prayers, as opposed to trying to make my mind a black cavern filled with nothing. Just a question for my Eastern Brothers and Sisters out there, because I want some counsel. By the way, I will be beginning the formal process of switching Rites from Roman Catholicism into my native Hungarian Greek Catholic Church, which is my patrimony and tied into my heritage and culture as a Hungarian-Canadian.