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Hello! I’m new here and am jumping right in. 
Long story as short as I can, I was raised Catholic, but left the church as a teenager, due primarily to the church’s teachings on gender and sexuality. But, in the ensuing 25 years, I’ve returned to Christianity, and I have been in a Presbyterian church for the last 5 years. However, my husband (who was also raised Catholic) and I have recently both been feeling led to at least consider returning to the RCC.
I don’t know if I never paid attention in church (well, I know I didn’t pay attention!) or if I just wasn’t at a very theologically solid church (the Catholicism I grew up with was very much a cultural Catholicism–everybody went to church every Sunday, but I don’t remember having a single conversation with any adult in my life about faith ever), but I thought “the gospel” was for evangelicals. And, I misunderstood what it was. When I finally had the ears to hear the gospel in my early 30s (the bad news that I am indeed a sinner and the good news that God loves me and made provision to deal with my sin), it was a very important and meaningful and defining moment for me. And it was Calvinists who best articulated the gospel in a way I could make sense of.
But, lately I feel like, while Calvinism kind of got me in the door, I’m stagnating. I understand intellectually God’s love for me, but I just don’t feel like I’m experiencing it. One issue I’m having is with the idea that, when God looks at me and accepts me, it’s because he sees Jesus, not me. While that makes theological sense, I find myself wondering how I can have a relationship with God if God never actually sees me. It is almost starting to feel as if Jesus is somehow keeping me from the Father instead of ushering me to him, although I absolutely know that’s NOT what the teaching is.
(And, practically, I have lately found myself longing for confession. I was listening to somebody talk about going to confession, and I began to cry. But that’s probably another issue entirely.)
So I find myself wondering if the Catholic idea of sanctification makes more sense than the Calvinist one, and I know I need to do more reading and thinking and praying about that. However, I’m wondering what the RCC articulation of the gospel is. Is there one? Does it look anything like the Protestant one? I’d really appreciate anybody willing to share the Catholic take on it.
Long story as short as I can, I was raised Catholic, but left the church as a teenager, due primarily to the church’s teachings on gender and sexuality. But, in the ensuing 25 years, I’ve returned to Christianity, and I have been in a Presbyterian church for the last 5 years. However, my husband (who was also raised Catholic) and I have recently both been feeling led to at least consider returning to the RCC.
I don’t know if I never paid attention in church (well, I know I didn’t pay attention!) or if I just wasn’t at a very theologically solid church (the Catholicism I grew up with was very much a cultural Catholicism–everybody went to church every Sunday, but I don’t remember having a single conversation with any adult in my life about faith ever), but I thought “the gospel” was for evangelicals. And, I misunderstood what it was. When I finally had the ears to hear the gospel in my early 30s (the bad news that I am indeed a sinner and the good news that God loves me and made provision to deal with my sin), it was a very important and meaningful and defining moment for me. And it was Calvinists who best articulated the gospel in a way I could make sense of.
But, lately I feel like, while Calvinism kind of got me in the door, I’m stagnating. I understand intellectually God’s love for me, but I just don’t feel like I’m experiencing it. One issue I’m having is with the idea that, when God looks at me and accepts me, it’s because he sees Jesus, not me. While that makes theological sense, I find myself wondering how I can have a relationship with God if God never actually sees me. It is almost starting to feel as if Jesus is somehow keeping me from the Father instead of ushering me to him, although I absolutely know that’s NOT what the teaching is.
(And, practically, I have lately found myself longing for confession. I was listening to somebody talk about going to confession, and I began to cry. But that’s probably another issue entirely.)
So I find myself wondering if the Catholic idea of sanctification makes more sense than the Calvinist one, and I know I need to do more reading and thinking and praying about that. However, I’m wondering what the RCC articulation of the gospel is. Is there one? Does it look anything like the Protestant one? I’d really appreciate anybody willing to share the Catholic take on it.