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FuzzyBunny116
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Arrggg!
In the middle of math class today, I finally burst. I had a spiritual breakdown. I’m just seriously frusterated at God. I pray, and it never seems like I’m answered. I know to be patient, but I’ve been doing it long enough, it seems like something should happen. I’ve prayed many St. Gertrude’s, and asked those I have to released to pray for me-you’d think hundreds of thousands would do the trick. I ask for rather trivial things, IMO, and it seems as though they’re never granted. As if God discriminates against ME personally. I just don’t understand it. My life would be so much easier without Him it seems way too often. I mean my prayers are never answered, so why should I even pray? I’m just stuck between zillions of rules, and it seems like He never does anything to make my life easier, like He is just an immature child with too much power. I mean for example, I’m completly overrun with thoughts of lust daily, and its rather exhausting to fight them off, I’ve prayed for months and asked the intercession of numerous Saints, and only for a little time did it seem to get better. You’d think that since I’m not allowed to entertain these thoughts, He would at least make it easier on me, and lift my pain. It just feels like I’m praying and doing stuff for absolutly nothing in return. Its so difficult to love someone when it feels like they’re ripping you off.
And look at that, despair is a sin. Just another prison I’m trapped in.
Help!
In the middle of math class today, I finally burst. I had a spiritual breakdown. I’m just seriously frusterated at God. I pray, and it never seems like I’m answered. I know to be patient, but I’ve been doing it long enough, it seems like something should happen. I’ve prayed many St. Gertrude’s, and asked those I have to released to pray for me-you’d think hundreds of thousands would do the trick. I ask for rather trivial things, IMO, and it seems as though they’re never granted. As if God discriminates against ME personally. I just don’t understand it. My life would be so much easier without Him it seems way too often. I mean my prayers are never answered, so why should I even pray? I’m just stuck between zillions of rules, and it seems like He never does anything to make my life easier, like He is just an immature child with too much power. I mean for example, I’m completly overrun with thoughts of lust daily, and its rather exhausting to fight them off, I’ve prayed for months and asked the intercession of numerous Saints, and only for a little time did it seem to get better. You’d think that since I’m not allowed to entertain these thoughts, He would at least make it easier on me, and lift my pain. It just feels like I’m praying and doing stuff for absolutly nothing in return. Its so difficult to love someone when it feels like they’re ripping you off.
And look at that, despair is a sin. Just another prison I’m trapped in.
Help!