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I am a woman who had been in an online long distance sinful relationship with a married woman who had an emotionally abusive husband. We spoke through text, email, poetry, phone, and webcam which was sexual once.
I confessed this sin years ago but just recently I felt romantically attracted to her again, along with a deep spiritual draw when I sensed she had reached a great place of spiritual wellness through a picture I saw of her in my newsfeed and an intuitive feeling.
I am married to a man now and no longer am curious or interested in sex with a woman.
I had an intense feeling of purity and peace in my lungs and heart when I thought of her, but I also had some spontaneous recurring thoughts of wanting to kiss her. I wasn’t indulging in the thoughts, just letting them pass and going about my life.
Since the desire for friendship was so strong and I felt we were on the same page in a way that is rare in my life now, I was considering talking to her again. My husband was uncomfortable with this.
Then the romantic feelings left and since just the spiritual draw was there I thought I could get in touch with her. I told my husband I had journaled out an experience and felt completely healed from it, no more sadness or certain feelings, which was the whole thing with her but later he told me he didn’t know I was referring to her. I thought I had said that. But that’s okay on his part. I probably wasn’t clear.
Anyway, a few days later, I was looking through my phone contacts to edit the contact and accidentally called her. It rang quickly so I decided to text her and mention I called accidentally but that I wanted to catch up with her sometime soon and good night. Later I realized it was ambiguous, but I thought she was saying to call right then, since she said she wanted to catch up too, it’s fine to call, and I didn’t want to be hurtful- I was looking forward to talking, though I planned to talk to my husband first.
I told him I was making a phone call. He asked if I was calling my mom. I said I was calling a friend to catch up. We spoke. She mentioned a spiritual epiphany (I didn’t bring it up) but we didn’t get into detail since it was sort of late. She told me I could call her again, a good time to call. I had a light refreshing feeling of peace in my heart after we spoke. But my husband was devastated when he found out.
I told him I wouldn’t talk to her, and haven’t. But some slight romantic feelings and thought that it would feel nice to kiss her on the lips and be close has come up again though I’m strong enough not to think about it more than them just appearing and passing.
Through this time I have prayed the immaculate heart of Mary novena and am talking to Jesus along with the rosary some days and today the Litany of Loreto.
Is it a sin to have the desire to kiss her, the thoughts coming up? I’m thinking it’s also a sin that I didn’t tell my husband it was her I was going to call and was vague. I didn’t tell him til he asked who I was on the phone with after we hung up.
I’m fine about going to confession and am glad to own up to sin and confess. I just want to know the sins to confess.
I confessed this sin years ago but just recently I felt romantically attracted to her again, along with a deep spiritual draw when I sensed she had reached a great place of spiritual wellness through a picture I saw of her in my newsfeed and an intuitive feeling.
I am married to a man now and no longer am curious or interested in sex with a woman.
I had an intense feeling of purity and peace in my lungs and heart when I thought of her, but I also had some spontaneous recurring thoughts of wanting to kiss her. I wasn’t indulging in the thoughts, just letting them pass and going about my life.
Since the desire for friendship was so strong and I felt we were on the same page in a way that is rare in my life now, I was considering talking to her again. My husband was uncomfortable with this.
Then the romantic feelings left and since just the spiritual draw was there I thought I could get in touch with her. I told my husband I had journaled out an experience and felt completely healed from it, no more sadness or certain feelings, which was the whole thing with her but later he told me he didn’t know I was referring to her. I thought I had said that. But that’s okay on his part. I probably wasn’t clear.
Anyway, a few days later, I was looking through my phone contacts to edit the contact and accidentally called her. It rang quickly so I decided to text her and mention I called accidentally but that I wanted to catch up with her sometime soon and good night. Later I realized it was ambiguous, but I thought she was saying to call right then, since she said she wanted to catch up too, it’s fine to call, and I didn’t want to be hurtful- I was looking forward to talking, though I planned to talk to my husband first.
I told him I was making a phone call. He asked if I was calling my mom. I said I was calling a friend to catch up. We spoke. She mentioned a spiritual epiphany (I didn’t bring it up) but we didn’t get into detail since it was sort of late. She told me I could call her again, a good time to call. I had a light refreshing feeling of peace in my heart after we spoke. But my husband was devastated when he found out.
I told him I wouldn’t talk to her, and haven’t. But some slight romantic feelings and thought that it would feel nice to kiss her on the lips and be close has come up again though I’m strong enough not to think about it more than them just appearing and passing.
Through this time I have prayed the immaculate heart of Mary novena and am talking to Jesus along with the rosary some days and today the Litany of Loreto.
Is it a sin to have the desire to kiss her, the thoughts coming up? I’m thinking it’s also a sin that I didn’t tell my husband it was her I was going to call and was vague. I didn’t tell him til he asked who I was on the phone with after we hung up.
I’m fine about going to confession and am glad to own up to sin and confess. I just want to know the sins to confess.
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