Diver, I followed your posts as well. I am so sorry for what you are going through!!! But under no circumstance is this your fault. I suffered from post partum depression after one of my children, I can tell you from all honesty, A person with this is so totally out of reality that they cannot be responsible for their actions but neither can anyone else. It is not your fault at all! No one not even my husband could have stopped me from trying to kill myself or others at that time! Please find yourself a new priest for counsel, and forgive the priest that talked to you so harshly, he is only human after all.