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yahwehsdaughter
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I would really appreciate some prayers.
- I haven’t had much peace with my family lately… I rebuked my brother a few weeks ago for being angry and saying he would punch a woman in the face if she didn’t respond to him flirting with her. He said it was a joke. (It wasn’t. He’s hit me before and gets angry a lot. I’m sure he would hit someone else.). We live together and he hasn’t really talked to me in like 3 weeks.
- My dad visited 3 weeks ago as well and was angry I didn’t want to move back in with him. He has beaten me and done other things to me in the past. We was angry the entire visit he was down and kept saying mean things to me. He pretends to be fine on the phone now, but he still has annoyance in his tone every now and then which let’s me know he’ll be angry when he visits again.
- My dad left me with a duck and a chicken to raise, but didn’t give me everything I need to take care of them. The chicken has been eating the ducks feathers, and the duck is going lame from niacin deficiency. It doesn’t like me even though I’m trying to help it. I can see it’s skin and the bone parts of its wings from being cannibalized. (I separated them today to give the duck a chance to heal, but it looks hopeless.)
- I desperately want to runaway from home, but don’t have a way and feel that I would be sinning if I do. I don’t want to be around anyone in my family or ever talk to them again. They are narcissistic abusers who have made me suffer my whole life. I’ve had panic attacks many times in front of them and they just got angry and told me to shut up, assuming I was doing it for attention. I do so much self-soothing and therapy before and after talking to them/being around them.
- I don’t really have any money. My dad spent $43,000 of my mom’s inheritance money without telling me. We have a joint bank account which he said I couldn’t spend from without his permission. I started selling notebooks online about a week ago to make money, and have made a few sales (3 to be exact). I don’t have a car or license and live in the middle of nowhere where my brother refuses to drive anywhere. Tbf, he has warrants and isn’t supposed to drive anyway. It’s a risk whenever he does.
- My dad is keeping illegal plants at my house, and I’m anxious at times that I will pay the penalty for it. He doesn’t care what I want and will yell at me if I ask him to move them, but I also don’t want to turn him in because he’s dad.
- Lastly, my mental and emotional wellness have been declining because of these things. I have a lot of anxiety and sleep problems, along with depression, and am still struggling with OCD on top of all these things. I have turned to “comfort sins” for escapism. My Christian friends have been too busy to talk to me lately, so I started seeking relationship and comfort in places I’m not proud of. I don’t know how to break things off with these people in a peaceful way, but I’m also not sure I want to because some days they are the only thing that make me feel happy for a little while.