I have been perusing the forums and listening to Catholic Radio a lot and am starting to feel like this is a hopeless battle, being a GOOD Catholic. It almost doesn’t seem “fair” that when you “know” the truth you are held accountable for it, but if you don’t know the truth you can’t be held accountable for it. So in my mind if I know a true Catholic teaching and find it difficult to put that into practice then I may not find my way to heaven, but someone else who doesn’t know the true teaching and doesn’t follow it has a better shot at heaven. Does this make sense? I have heard the arguments that we get credit for “trying” to practice correctly and that others might not make it to heaven because they didn’t search for the truth. But there are many people out there who believe that they ARE practicing the true Catholic teachings. I don’t know, I’m rambling. I’m just frustrated . .
Dear friend
I sense the complete frustration in your post, please don’t feel this way, we know God to be merciful, we know He is merciful to the heart that is honest, persistant in trying though we may fail, we know that God’s mercy is unending and we know that he loves us Eternally. You were made to live with Him, He created all people for this purpose, for union with Him and to love, know and serve Him. God doesn’t desire us to be ignorant of Him, He knows you intimately, more than you know yourself! He desires ALL peoples to know Him, it is the sole purpose of your creation, and by knowing Him you will desire to love and serve Him.
God asks for perseverance though the road is hard. He loves you always and His mercy is always there for you should you desire it in reconciliation, we are all sinners, not one of us is worthy of His gift of eternal life without Christ Jesus.
Isaiah 43:1 ‘I have called you by name. You are precious in my eyes. You are mine and I love you.’
So even when you sin, you are loved the exact same by God as when you do not sin. All He asks for is your faith and your striving not to sin, to keep His laws and do good works, but when you do, as any father would to his child, He says by the power of the Holy Spirit in the Apostolic succession of the Priest as commissioned by Jesus… (What you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, what you lose on earth will be loosed in heaven)… the unending font of His love and mercy in reconciliation to the repentant soul and heart.
Do your very best, you can do no more than that. Ask God to help you and tell Him you are finding this hard, sek the intercession of Mary our Blessed Mother.
You are not facing anything that a Christian has not faced. I have often thought, this is very very hard …but then I think of what my Lord Jesus faced and my hardhsip is nothing compared to His and He gladly did it without any complaining.
God Bless you and much love and peace to you
Teresa