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NathanCarson
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My faith in Jesus is very real. I’ve not been catholic for very long. I’m still in RCIA. My path to the catholic church was a strange one. It took coming very close to death to accept Jesus as Lord. It’s been three years roughly since I first prayed to him. The holy spirit led me to the catholic church. I see why I used to disagree on theology with protestants. Anyway, enough history.
I have always had strange visions. When I was a little kid, I used to just stare at the ceiling til’ I was swallowed up by light. It happened tonight at bible study. All I saw was the people in the room. Everything else but us dissapeared, and there was only light. Not in an instant. I was seeing this for a while. I don’t really have a sense of time at times like that. Far from brief though. I have bad visions sometimes too. I don’t like to talk about it. The bad one has tried to posses me. I thank God for keeping me safe. The other night he was trying to sway me. There’s a statue of Mary that almost seemed to have red eyes glowing. My pastor was a few pieus in front of me at the perpetual adoration chapel, and I felt like his head was going to spin around at me. This was in the chapel no less…I knew God was there to protect me. I can see through most of the false visions. Sometimes it’s hard to tell. I can’t even go into depth of all the things I’ve seen. Most of them are so horrible God has blessed me not to remember. I just know SOMETHING happened, but I don’t remember the full details. I don’t want to. I always can see the lamp in peoples eyes. When they shine. When they are dark. I can tell who prays for me sometimes. When I need prayer but can’t get the words, I hear them praying for me. I see their face. I always want to go up and thank them later, but I don’t know how to tell them. They never told me they prayed for me.
I attribute a lot of what I see to the enemy. If ever it’s God, I know, and am usually weeping tears of Joy.
I’m assure you I’m not crazy. Crazy is what I was when I denied Jesus.
So am I the only one?
is all my credibility gone?
I have always had strange visions. When I was a little kid, I used to just stare at the ceiling til’ I was swallowed up by light. It happened tonight at bible study. All I saw was the people in the room. Everything else but us dissapeared, and there was only light. Not in an instant. I was seeing this for a while. I don’t really have a sense of time at times like that. Far from brief though. I have bad visions sometimes too. I don’t like to talk about it. The bad one has tried to posses me. I thank God for keeping me safe. The other night he was trying to sway me. There’s a statue of Mary that almost seemed to have red eyes glowing. My pastor was a few pieus in front of me at the perpetual adoration chapel, and I felt like his head was going to spin around at me. This was in the chapel no less…I knew God was there to protect me. I can see through most of the false visions. Sometimes it’s hard to tell. I can’t even go into depth of all the things I’ve seen. Most of them are so horrible God has blessed me not to remember. I just know SOMETHING happened, but I don’t remember the full details. I don’t want to. I always can see the lamp in peoples eyes. When they shine. When they are dark. I can tell who prays for me sometimes. When I need prayer but can’t get the words, I hear them praying for me. I see their face. I always want to go up and thank them later, but I don’t know how to tell them. They never told me they prayed for me.
I attribute a lot of what I see to the enemy. If ever it’s God, I know, and am usually weeping tears of Joy.
I’m assure you I’m not crazy. Crazy is what I was when I denied Jesus.
So am I the only one?
is all my credibility gone?