C
Cokeman
Guest
Hi, I came from a catholic family of six. The yougest(two older brothers and one sister) raised in a good family with some emotional abuse. When I was born they had to cut the cord
and push me back in, then let me out. I was blue they said I had brain damage. I now know I am learning disabled and sometimes emotionaly and socially challenged-- where I say and do things that I latter wished I caped my mouth shut. My learning disability entails – spelling words and reading words comprehention.
While growing up I never remember any of us getting spanked. Most of my childhood was growing up on a farm. So I knew the value of hard work. Folks got spanked havely while growing up so they did not want to spank us.
I graduated from high school with about a C avage. I went to college since that was the thing to do. I could not maintain a high enough grade point to geat a degree. So I ended up with a Bachlor of General Studies (BGS). Emphasis in Business management. I have been able to
find work for the most part but only able to stay 2 years at the longest. Emotionaly or Socially I would burn bridges at all my past jobs. Feeling frustrated not able to get a Managers position
or haveing any girlfriends I have gotten depresed. When I am deressed I do one of two things. One go out and buy things I do not need, just for the thrill of buying, or I would stay in my bed
all day so I would not have to face the outside world. Once in a great while I could find females older then me that would be willing to spank me every now and then.(three times a year) When they do; I feel great for the next few weeks afterwords. Now it has been over two years since my last spanking. (the females that would spank me have moved) When they are done spanking my bottom is warm/hot to the touch . It is all done by hand only. I am still strugleing with deprestion; Trying to be a manager again, I am not haveing spending problumes. I am 32. I now work 20 of 21 days 60 hours a week to try and pay off my credit card debt. I am single, no girlfriend few man friends, life now has little or no meaning. My siblings are all succesfull I am still strugleing. My teeth are nasty so I think when they die out I might die. My gradparents are still alive, both my gradmas have alzhimers. So when they go I could use that as a reason to go. Some days I think tomorrow will
be better, some times I think this is my punishment. liveing in the twin cites the last five years you hear and read about death on a daily baises. I have now become decenatized. I have no clue what to do. I do not beleive in drugs, they make you feel a certain way. What can I do besides haveing females give me a long loveing spanking to make me feel good about me???
and push me back in, then let me out. I was blue they said I had brain damage. I now know I am learning disabled and sometimes emotionaly and socially challenged-- where I say and do things that I latter wished I caped my mouth shut. My learning disability entails – spelling words and reading words comprehention.
While growing up I never remember any of us getting spanked. Most of my childhood was growing up on a farm. So I knew the value of hard work. Folks got spanked havely while growing up so they did not want to spank us.
I graduated from high school with about a C avage. I went to college since that was the thing to do. I could not maintain a high enough grade point to geat a degree. So I ended up with a Bachlor of General Studies (BGS). Emphasis in Business management. I have been able to
find work for the most part but only able to stay 2 years at the longest. Emotionaly or Socially I would burn bridges at all my past jobs. Feeling frustrated not able to get a Managers position
or haveing any girlfriends I have gotten depresed. When I am deressed I do one of two things. One go out and buy things I do not need, just for the thrill of buying, or I would stay in my bed
all day so I would not have to face the outside world. Once in a great while I could find females older then me that would be willing to spank me every now and then.(three times a year) When they do; I feel great for the next few weeks afterwords. Now it has been over two years since my last spanking. (the females that would spank me have moved) When they are done spanking my bottom is warm/hot to the touch . It is all done by hand only. I am still strugleing with deprestion; Trying to be a manager again, I am not haveing spending problumes. I am 32. I now work 20 of 21 days 60 hours a week to try and pay off my credit card debt. I am single, no girlfriend few man friends, life now has little or no meaning. My siblings are all succesfull I am still strugleing. My teeth are nasty so I think when they die out I might die. My gradparents are still alive, both my gradmas have alzhimers. So when they go I could use that as a reason to go. Some days I think tomorrow will
be better, some times I think this is my punishment. liveing in the twin cites the last five years you hear and read about death on a daily baises. I have now become decenatized. I have no clue what to do. I do not beleive in drugs, they make you feel a certain way. What can I do besides haveing females give me a long loveing spanking to make me feel good about me???
