Suffering for Christ..need advice

[littleone]

You know that God is single minded and when He thinks of you you are the only person He has in mind, the best, and the one he loves at that time.

Also, if you could recommend some good books for me to read, I would really appreciate it very much***************
I would recomend the book “A retreat with St Therese” the little flower. Read also of St Therese, “If I were to commit all the sins ther are”. I have a copy that I will try to write in for you if you wish. I guess the big thing that Im struggling with is the fact that God loves me and that He has a plan for me.

This is something from another thread that might help you!
I believe that the more we let go of the world and let God and fall in love with God the more grace we are given and the more we will realise how little we really know and will want to attain more grace, thus giving yourself more readily to God to attain the graces God wishes that person to have.

Probably the most beautiful gift a person could be given with the grace God would give is to be asked, invited, or chosen to suffer in the suffering of Jesus Christ.
I can only say never run away from that gift if it is asked of you.Remember God NEVER gives His children more than they can take, He has gone before them to prepare the way, and He is there if they want to speak to Him.

God bless
littleone

 

[littleone]

Brother I have you in my heart at this time and am praying for strength for you. Along with the situations in my life, there is one that took me by surprise because I didn’t think it would hit like it did:I believe that I shold share with you at this time this incident.
After 19 years of marrage I could take no more of the put downs, being called a useless husband father and lover. I saw a psychologist because our 5 children had given me a fathers day card saying how they loved ma nd the things we had done together.
I started having week long migrains that turned night into day and dark into light but an ugly light. I could not take the children being put down. I knew that I had to leave after my wife told me she would not be under my guidance she left the catholic church for some other church.

I came to another town not to leave my wife as such but to get my life back together. In the first year away I could not even understand myself.
In the begining of the 2nd year away my son who lived with me came to me ( January 9th) and said that our eldest daughter was in hospital. I had waited all 6 years for this message because no one would get her boyfriend away and my wife was so verbly violent that our daughter would not come home.

Our daughter was in hospital beaten up, brain dead and yet prignant, she had been beaten up over some 5 months the corroner said. She was given a sicerian the baby lived and the pipes were taken away from our daughter and she died. My wife said she wanted our daughter burried the childern to go any where so she could get on with her life. The boyfriend took sides with my wife. At the funeral the boyfriend took 5 mates with gunns to blow our family away. There were plain clothed police at the funeral I found out latter.

I had no money left from paying for the funeral. two months latter the boyfriend hung himself in front of three of the children aged 7yr, 5yr, and 4yr. I started to go to the funeral and the car automatic tranzmition gave way. 1 month latter after getting it fixed and under the strain of my wife stopping me have the grand children I traveled 250Kls every 2nd weekend to help the other grand mother who had the children. She also had had two heart attacks. I was studieing at Uni at the time and while there, my son left to go and stay with his brothers in another city that left me by myself with not being able to pay the rent, no food, and no money for power.

I fought telecom for the phone to keep in contact with the children, and the new border phoned his home in the islands over one thousand Kls from New Zealand, this cost me $650 so i had to fight for him to have the account reversed to his name which I won. Next 1 month latter I received a $840 account from telecom telling me that the account I had was to be paid right away. I asked where the accounts were to and they were all sex calls all over the world. I found out that the person who was calling was the person from telecom who had rung me. It was now July. I fought for the account to be reversed which I won.

I was still fighting for the rights to the grand children when my wife was having a grave stone put down on our daughters pad. Our 2nd daughter came and said that I needed to see the stone which was all wrong in the writing and it didn’t make sence. I payed for another stone which my wife never looked at.
All the way through this I was still studieing and looking after the children each 2nd weekend. Now I received the corroners report saying (cuttiing it short) that our daughter was murderd. The oldest grand child the 9 year old now, kept on asking “grandpa did dady kill mummy?”.
How was I to give an answer, and could only say that Mum is with God and God loves her.
Brother this is not all but a tip of the situation, but enough to say I share this to help you to help yo with knowing God never gives more than we can take(I hope). know that when we give our herts to God some times we cannot see how much work is done through carrieing the cross. I hope you are strong and I will pray that you will be. Lord look after our brother bless him abundently pore Your spirit on him I pray Lord. Let him be a beacon of your love Lord.

God bless you
littleone.