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blakjak12
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Hello all,
I am new to the Forums, and I am thankful such a thing even exists. My prayer intentions are a bit more self-focused than most of what seems to be posted here, and I would like to extend my sympathy to those affected by illness. I am thankful that I am currently in good health and provided with far more than I need to get by.
Lately, I have struggled with lustful thoughts and various other sins against chastity, the worst of which are masturbation and “dry-humping” (sorry I don’t know a more appropriate term). Although I never plan to masturbate, there was a recent incident where my lustful thoughts accumulated and resulted in a form of masturbation after waking in the morning. I did not touch myself, but still gyrated in an attempt for self-gratification. I have had similar problems in the past, but I have already confessed those past sins. The dry-humping occurred with a romantic partner when I once again allowed lustful thoughts to dictate my actions while I knowingly disregarded God. Both of these sins arose as a result of lustful thoughts for this romantic partner (a girl I have dated on and off; we were not officially “together” at our last outing). We have not done anything more than kissing, and we have had solid boundaries in our relationship. We are both Catholics and saving sex for marriage.
However, my intentions clearly demonstrate I am not pure of mind or action. I know such sins are very wrong, yet I continue to put myself in these situations by letting my lust control me. Knowing that nothing more than kissing will ever happen with this girl, I have sought to gain the most personal pleasure possible and have clearly not adhered to my beliefs as a Catholic. Rather than dismissing lustful thoughts, I often entertain them and the results have clearly been detrimental.
Sorry for the long post, and I realize that my perverted actions may seem infantile and downright strange. I am going to Confession this weekend before Mass, and I am looking forward to a fresh start. I wanted to share this here and ask for your prayers and support. I figure having another resource and a little extra something to hold myself accountable certainly couldn’t hurt.
Thank you all and God bless.
I am new to the Forums, and I am thankful such a thing even exists. My prayer intentions are a bit more self-focused than most of what seems to be posted here, and I would like to extend my sympathy to those affected by illness. I am thankful that I am currently in good health and provided with far more than I need to get by.
Lately, I have struggled with lustful thoughts and various other sins against chastity, the worst of which are masturbation and “dry-humping” (sorry I don’t know a more appropriate term). Although I never plan to masturbate, there was a recent incident where my lustful thoughts accumulated and resulted in a form of masturbation after waking in the morning. I did not touch myself, but still gyrated in an attempt for self-gratification. I have had similar problems in the past, but I have already confessed those past sins. The dry-humping occurred with a romantic partner when I once again allowed lustful thoughts to dictate my actions while I knowingly disregarded God. Both of these sins arose as a result of lustful thoughts for this romantic partner (a girl I have dated on and off; we were not officially “together” at our last outing). We have not done anything more than kissing, and we have had solid boundaries in our relationship. We are both Catholics and saving sex for marriage.
However, my intentions clearly demonstrate I am not pure of mind or action. I know such sins are very wrong, yet I continue to put myself in these situations by letting my lust control me. Knowing that nothing more than kissing will ever happen with this girl, I have sought to gain the most personal pleasure possible and have clearly not adhered to my beliefs as a Catholic. Rather than dismissing lustful thoughts, I often entertain them and the results have clearly been detrimental.
Sorry for the long post, and I realize that my perverted actions may seem infantile and downright strange. I am going to Confession this weekend before Mass, and I am looking forward to a fresh start. I wanted to share this here and ask for your prayers and support. I figure having another resource and a little extra something to hold myself accountable certainly couldn’t hurt.
Thank you all and God bless.
