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Almond1
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How many of you struggle with this?
I used to live a very sinful life. I was an alcoholic, abused drugs often, and lived only for myself. Over the last few years I’ve eliminated these bad habits and reverted to my childhood Catholicism, I receive the sacraments often and try to do good, etc, a really complete change of life and how I think about reality.
But I still love to eat too much. I look forward to committing this sin, like it’s the only sensual pleasure that I’m really “allowed”. I know that it holds me back spiritually and that God “fills the hungry with good things”. I will fast to prove to myself that I still love God more than food, sometimes I will restrict what I eat for a long period of time. But then there will come a day, or string of days, when I eat heavily. It reproduces, in a really distant way, the feeling of using drugs or alcohol. I just ate a lot now and feel all warm and cozy.
I know I need to take control of it. But the consequences seem so light - after all it’s “only” a venial sin, just a bit of intemperance, it feels good and it won’t send me to Hell. So I do it.
Has anyone dealt with something like this, and how have you gotten over it?
Gluttony is definitely NOT my worst sin, I have other more serious sins. But it’s my favorite sin. Even if I keep myself to very low amounts of food, the little food I do eat is the high point of my day. I don’t seem to be able to eat “naturally”, I have to keep a mental count of calories to avoid overeating.
I used to live a very sinful life. I was an alcoholic, abused drugs often, and lived only for myself. Over the last few years I’ve eliminated these bad habits and reverted to my childhood Catholicism, I receive the sacraments often and try to do good, etc, a really complete change of life and how I think about reality.
But I still love to eat too much. I look forward to committing this sin, like it’s the only sensual pleasure that I’m really “allowed”. I know that it holds me back spiritually and that God “fills the hungry with good things”. I will fast to prove to myself that I still love God more than food, sometimes I will restrict what I eat for a long period of time. But then there will come a day, or string of days, when I eat heavily. It reproduces, in a really distant way, the feeling of using drugs or alcohol. I just ate a lot now and feel all warm and cozy.
I know I need to take control of it. But the consequences seem so light - after all it’s “only” a venial sin, just a bit of intemperance, it feels good and it won’t send me to Hell. So I do it.
Has anyone dealt with something like this, and how have you gotten over it?
Gluttony is definitely NOT my worst sin, I have other more serious sins. But it’s my favorite sin. Even if I keep myself to very low amounts of food, the little food I do eat is the high point of my day. I don’t seem to be able to eat “naturally”, I have to keep a mental count of calories to avoid overeating.